" Makayla how are you feeling it's been a while since we've talked "
"empty and lost"
"why do you feel that way"
"Because of you bitch"
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"What do you mean empty?"jasheh asked me I scoffed
"Why?....why do you want to know?so you can make fun of me?"I asked him I mean so what we both high but ik not stupid
"No of course not I...I just know how it feels to be empty"
"So why would you ask me what do I mean"I laughed
"We need a title"I suggested he laughed
"So childish but sure"he said and we just sat in silence thinking of a title
"Diary"he said
"Why that"I asked
"We can tell each other every thing and all our pain just like a regular diary,but everything that we say stays between us"he explained I nodded
"Okay..I...I.. I've been feeling empty inside every since that day..that day she left me there...that day she took me and left me their she said they were gonna talk to me but they showed me around and we stopped at a room it had a bed in there and a window in it nothing else I then heard the door slam and I seen my mom on the other side tears fell down her face as I ran to the door and begged her to let me out but she walked away"I said as endless tears left me face it felt like I just lifted a lil weight off my chest but it only felt temporary jasheh got up and he came over to me and hugged me and rubbed my back I cried even harder I cried in his chest
"Shhh it'll all be okay"he said as he rubbed my back it...it calmed me down but how? How did he stop the tears from falling...
"Ive been accused of some shit by the person I thought loved me the most turns out she just wanted money and clout it used to be so hard for me to move on but I did.. taha"he said said I could hear the pain in his voice we both laid down in his bed and I laid on his chest
"Hello?from the dark side in Does anybody here wanna be my friend? Want it all to end,tell me when the fuck Is it all gon end? Voices in my head,telling me I'm gonna end up dead So save me, before I fall So save me,I don't wanna be alone"x sung his voice was beautiful but it was filled with pain I felt every word that came out of his mouth
"Let's sleep"he said and I drifted off __
When I woke up I was in my bed but how?I got up and seen I still had on my same clothes ,I looked at my clock it was 12:23am
Damn how long was u sleep? and who brought me home?as I checked the time I seen a note I grabbed it
It was getting late so I dropped you off at home your mom let me in she seems...nice? I didn't undress you cause we don't know each other like dat but I took off your shoes for you and tucked you in bed. in case you wanna chill or hang out heres my number 313-542-9269 Good night diary.
I smiled at his letter....it gave me this feeling something I never felt before..I just couldn't stop smiling I grabbed my little box my dad gave me
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I put his letter in there and locked it back up and put it back on my closet shelf and put on sum shorts and t-shirt and went back to bed ____
I woke up and and I sat up and went to the bathroom
(A/N y'all know how to shower and shit no need to explain)
I put on my black hoodie and some blue jeans with my black Jordans and I grabbed my phone off the charger and went downstairs in the kitchen to see my mom
"Good morning baby"she said all cheesey
"Morning"I said eating my mixed fruit at the table
"So who's your lil friend that dropped you off last night he was cute"she said trying to lighten the mood but she was literally irritating me just by her talking
"He's just a friend nothing more nothing less"I said with no emotion and a blank face
"You don't have to go to school today if you don't want to it's Friday and do you want to go sho-gco
"STOP,stop acting like you care,stop trying to make it up to me,you can't you never will,I hate you and I always will"I said getting back on my phone I was so irritated
"I'm sorry okay I just wanted them to help you and make you forget so you could start over like now"she said as tears left her eyes
"Help?you called that help?leaving me in their for 3 months is help? every day I wanted to go home,I wanted to go outside and get air not to sit down a table every week and visit you and you didn't even tell me he died I figured out myself"I said holding back tears
"I was trying to help you"she cried
"You don't know what help is do you know how many needles they stuck in me when I had a mental break down I wanted you to take me home I used to cry for you but you always left...I will never love you again EVER"I said grabbing my phone heading upstairs to my room and I closed the door and locked it I went into my bathroom and I dialed x number I wrote it down in a sticky note don't judge me
*Conversation*
"Yo who dis"he said
"Makayla aka your diary"I said and he laughed
"Oh hey good morning babygirl"he said I blushed wtf why did I blush I don't like him do I?
"Good morning um are you busy"I asked him
"No I can come get you wanna go get breakfast?"he asked he sounded excited and desperate for a yes
"Yeah sure"I said wiping my tears
"Okay be there in 3 minutes"he said
"Wait"I said before he hung up
"Yeah"he waited for me to speak
"T-thank you for last night....I appreciate it"I said he's honestly
"You don't have to Thank me that's what friends are for"he said I nodded even though he couldn't see me
"Okay see you in a minute"I said and with that we hung up
*End of conversation*
I grabbed my book bags purse and put some weed,some woods and Dutch's,my charger,and my wallet in there and I grabbed my lighter off my shelf I then sat on my bed and waited for x
He's so nice to me but why? He said "friends"...I never had any of those not even when she left me there but there is a mystery about him and I want to figure it out he's interesting and for some reason I feel a connection like as friends I never felt that how is he doing this to me?
