It's getting harder to go on
It's getting harder to wake up in the morning
To make myself leave the confinement of my bed
It's getting harder to stop myself from crying
To sleep
To work
While doing my work
It's getting harder to stop myself from relapsing
And reach for the blade that I kept in the book that I put on my keyboard
It's getting harder
The music can only help for so long
I can't go on
Help me
I'm falling and I don't care if I fell
I don't care anymore
The emotions are relentless
They're chasing me and demand to be heard
To be felt
But I'm tired of feeling things
They're useless
Like I am
I'm forgetting things
I'm a burden
I'm a waste of space
I should die
Yeah
Totally
I should let that truck hit me
Maybe I'll die
But
The thought of dying makes me scared
So, so, so scared
Sitting at KFC
Shouldn't but I did anyway
I don't have friends
But that's okay
I'm not a good friend anyway
And all they did is talk shit behind my back like they knew me
And I'm so tired of people's shit
I'm tired of everything
I'm tired of the world
I'm tired of my job
I'm just tired
I almost had enough
I can only be kind for so long
It's hard being kind
And being scolded for telling the truth
Nothing hurts more than that
I should end it
Me
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RandomSo, new book, new book, new book! All I have to do is write new book cause you guys just hate me so much! If you dislike it, punch your 'back' button and get off my book. This is a venting place for me. For those who knows me, hi!!! Long time no cha...
