Deadly love

         I had always been a good girl. I had always been obedient , carrying and sweet like a candy as my dad would describe me. I had the perfect life when I was a kid. My family and I used to live in a village , many miles away from the town. We had a big house with a huge garden with many colorful flowers and toys for me to play with. That garden was all I ever asked for. As I grew older , I may stopped running and dancing but I never stopped visiting it. I used to sit underneath the shadow of an old , tall tree , reading books along with my cat. I used to stay there for hours. I loved hearing the birds singing , the leaves rustling and watching the grass shining underneath hot sun's rays.

         I was not a big fan of Christmas. Everyone , especially my parents, adored it and they would always decorate everything . Colorful strings of lights on the fences , on the trees , on the house and on the balconies. Plastic snowmen and Santa-clauses greeted us in front of our front doot. Everything was just .. so sparkling! My parents always said that Christmas was a family celebration , so we would never go anywhere or accept any visitors during Christmas.

         One year our doorbell rang. We all were surprised as we didn't expect any visitors. We opened the door and my grandmother greeted us with hugs and gifts. I was so happy ! My parents revealed that she came all the way from our hometown in order to decorate the house all together! This was the first and the last Christmas I would celebrate with her as it turned out later..

       We all sat around the fireplace telling stories . My grandmother told us about a custom tradition that kept from the very old years. She told us that the oldest woman in the family had to put the angel on top of the tree for good luck. At fist ,I wondered why we had never followed this tradition , but then it occurred to me that my mother would always place the topper as she was the oldest woman in the family.. The following day ,we decorated our tree . My grandmother climbed up on a silver ladder in order to reach the top . She was so close but yet so far. Only some inches away from achieving her goal before she lost her balance and fell down. She hit her head so hard and her death was so instant that she wasn't even able to feel any pain. We rushed her to the hospital but it was already too late.

        We were all devastated . A stupid custom took my grandmothers life away.. Till Christmas was over , not even one ornament had been moved away from its place. Not even to honor her memory. Her funeral was too much for me to take in. There were not more than ten people ,including us, and my parents were unbearable. They seriously made Christmas cookies to give away to the attendants. CHRISTMAS COOKIES !

I had enough of Christmas.

        Two years later was the time I discovered who I really was.. What my sexuality was.. I really into girls . It wasn't much of a surprise for me though, as I realized that was the reason why I never had a relationship with any boy. I was a seventeen-years-old teenage girl with zero interest in guys! Something was definitely wrong with me and I found out what it was ,despite my parents , being against homosexual people . They even wanted me to be homeschooled as they thought that I was spending time with badly raised girls..

        When Christmas came , both of my parents acted like nothing ever happened. Like we had never been into a fight over my preference. Like literally , my father woke me up with a kiss in the forehead , breakfast was already done and my mother was casually cleaning the house like nothing ever happened. The tree was sitting naked next to the snow covered window , waiting for us to hang the colorful ornaments on each branch. My grandmother wasn't here so my mother had to place the angel on the top . I was so afraid that something bad would happen and sadly I was right. As she was trying to reach the top , she suffered an electroshock that sant her flying out of the window. I don't remember much of that day as when I heard the doctors announcing her death , I passed out.