Fitoor

Zaroorat

Days were passing very quickly but how she manages to go through every day only she knows!
It wasn't easy , not at all with all those memories that keep haunting her.

She was sitting in her room totally lost in her memories...she didn't even realised that it was dark outside.
A knock on door broke her trance.. It was her mother who came with food... Because like many other days Nisha again skipped her meals locking herself in her room. And like always Laxmi maa forcefully fed her.
Then made Nisha rest in her lap for some time...
She knew how hard it was for Nisha. Even though it's been months , she couldn't get over kabir. Laxmi just wanted to distract her for sometime from her miseries , So she tried to sooth Nisha's pain , with her sweet talks about Nisha's childhood. Nisha dose off in her lap. she smiled seeing her sleep. She left the room after an hour making her sleep properly on bed switching off all lights & closing the door.

But as soon as Laxmi went away from there Nisha opened her eyes. She wasn't asleep she was just pretending to sleep so that her mother can go & take rest. Because these days sleep is miles aways from Nisha's eyes! All the time she keeps thinking about him...only him! her Kabir...

She got up and walked towards the window of her room and started staring at the moon..

It was late night, 11:30pm at her place..

On other side , in London , Kabir was also sitting on the window looking at sky. The moon just arrived there in sky it was 7:30pm there!

They both started talking to the moon as if moon was conveying their messages to one another...

"Kyu Kabir?Kyu kiya tune ye sab? Kyu toda apna vaada?"

"I'm sorry Nisha.. meine apna vaada tod diya par wo zaruri tha.. Teri safety ke liye...I can't put you in any trouble..Tere ghar me kisi ko bhi pata Chal jata that we both are in contact bahut bada hungama ho jata..Sab kharab ho jata.. aur me..me wahan tere paas bhi nahi aa pata sab kuch sambhalne.. tu akeli pad jati.."

"Akeli to me pad gyi hu Kabir...Tere Bina....
Kya socha tha aur kya ho gya ye sab..kitni khush me uss din, ki tu Tera sapna poora karne jara raha hai..par kabi nahi socha tha ke tere sath sath tu meri sari khushiyan bhi le jayega! "

"Teri khushi ke liye hi to kiya ye sab...hamesha se London dance school ka sapna dekha par jab Jane ka waqt aya to Mann hi nahi kar raha tha par tu khush thi aur Teri khushi me mein bhi khush ho gaya aur sirf Teri khushi ke liye apni zindagi yani tujhe wahan chod apne purane sapne ko phir se jeene yahan aa gaya..."

"Pagal thi me jo khud tujhe apne se dur kar baithi...kash uss din meine tujhe rok liya hota par kis haq se rokti me? Tera sapna aur Teri khushiyon ke beech kaise aa jati me? Aur sach to ye hai ki uss waqt to mujhe hi nahi pata tha ki meri khushi kisme hai? kiske sath hai...meine khud hi ye baat samajne me bahut der kardi Kabir..shayad dosh Tera nahi mera hi hai...Jo meine ye sab hone diya.."

"Dosh to mera hai Nisha Jo meine bar bar apne vaade tode hain...Pehla vaada toda Jo uss contract me likha tha aur tujhse pyaar kar baitha aur ab dubara yahan ake tujhse contact na karke phir se apna vaada toda par ab tak to shayad tu mujhe bhool bhi gayi hogi..Sirf ek dost hi to tha me Tera.."

"Yahi to problem hai Na Kabir ki me tujhe bhool hi nahi paa Rahi..lakh koshish karlun par pagalo jaise har phone ke ring pe ye umeed laga leti hu ki shayad tera call hoga .. bahut samjhaya khud ko .. bahut rokne ki koshish bhi ki .. par nahi kar Sakti kyuki tu sirf dost nahi hai ab mera..."