Affair Of The Heart

*^*^*Chapter Two*^*^*

markhyucksAss
(JIMIN)

Waking up seems to be the hardest part of my day. I could sleep all night and day if I could, I would most likely choose that over doing anything else.

Maybe because my dreams are the only place where I can have everything I want, and need. I know it seems greedy of me to say that since it seems like i have everything. I really don't though.

I don't have my mom to see when ever I choose, I can't have a normal relationship without problems of an idol. I can't simply walk outside and go to the corner store to get some chips without a fan or two to bother me. Now don't get me wrong, I adore my fans. But I would like to have a "normal" life.

The same faces everyday gets tiring.

Yes concerts and performing, being in one of the biggest boy bands to ever be is amazing, but it does get tiring. And quickly.

I remember when I was just that other puny 9th grader starting out in a new school trying to find my place in this world, figuring out my sexuality, my group, the things I like. Dancing has always been a big thing for me, I remember dancing with my mom in our living room playing music from the portable radio my mom had for when she cleaned.

Everything was boring, plain.

Then my dance teacher helped me go to school at an even better highschool. I also got encouragement from others to go and audition to become a trainee. So that's what i did, I got help from my parents, my jobs I had and my dance teacher and auditioned.

I went with bighit since they already had a boy group getting set up and it was a pretty talented bunch unlike the other companies I auditioned for.

I remember performing for our first little audience it wasn't the biggest crowd, actually pretty small. But we performed like it was the last time we'd ever perform. As well, we didn't know if it would have been. Since then we made a promise to perform like that everywhere, as we never know when our last time may come.

Those guys are more family than my family has been for the past couple of years. I'm so grateful to them, they have cared and supported me as I have done to them as well.

The only mistake i ever had was getting with her.

But why is it the best mistake ive ever made? I wouldnt take it back.

In fact, I would do it all over again if i had the chance.