something great.

2019, july, wk 25, prt 2

nialler: that's a lot of x's

tommo: what

nialler: on instagram

tommo: what are you stalking me now?

nialler: you know i'm not. i'm just worried about you.

nialler: you haven't called me in a week and i miss my best friend :(

tommo: i'm sorry niall. please don't think i was ignoring you or anything.

tommo: i'm sorry please don't hate me.

nialler: hey, lou, it's okay i was just messing.

nialler: i just wish you'd call me at least once a week to check in?

nialler: is that too much to ask?

tommo: definitely not. i missed you too.

nialler: what have you been up to then?

tommo: just, um, hanging with harry

nialler: and you're being safe?

tommo: we're not having sex jesus christ niall

nialler: i didn't mean it like that!

nialler: i just mean, that i know you're still in love with him, but i don't want you to jump in head first. because that's when heartbreak happens worst. you're unsuspecting and completely smitten. be careful ok?

tommo: you don't think it would work between me and harry?

nialler: of course i do!

nialler: you know i want that more than anything. you were the cutest couple.

nialler: but i jut want to make sure you're ok.

nialler: speaking of which. how are you?

tommo: i'm not going to lie to you niall

tommo: i don't think i've been this happy in a long time.

tommo: like, you, and zayn and liam make me happy. really happy. you guys know that. but when you leave, or we're separated, i feel like i've lost of bit of my happiness you know? like i was just borrowing from you. do you know what i mean?

nialler: i'm not sure, but continue anyway. i like to hear your thoughts.

tommo: well, i've just realised that with Harry around and back again its just another feeling.

tommo: of course, i'm still sad about shit all the time.

tommo: but when i'm happy, it feels like a real happy. like, i made the happiness myself.

tommo: it makes me feel like i can be happy forever. you know?

nialler: you can be happy forever lou.

nialler: there will be days now, and in the future - even after you've reached the happy forever stage - where you'll be sad. that's how life works.

nialler: but i can promise you, that liam, zayn, myself and harry will work and support you as much as possible to stop you from feeling pain. ever.

nialler: because you just don't deserve it.

nialler: every hand you've been served in life has been unfair to you.

nialler: and i'm sorry for that louis.

nialler: i am.

nialler: i wish that i could just take all the pain and sadness that you feel, and throw it far far away.

nialler: it hurts me to see my best friend so sad all the time.

tommo: i'm trying to be better. to get better.

nialler: i know you are lou, and i'm so so proud of you.

nialler: we all are.

tommo: thanks ni.

nialler: we love you louis.

tommo: i love you guys too.