My mind is shaking my earth is quaking
Why am I still not breakingI'll walk away and never turn around
I can pretend to
will of steel
I gotta let you know I got a will of steel
nothing you got could feel better than this and that's feeling real
I'm ma be living it up living p to my own standards
one thing about me is when i aim is I aim to hit and I learn when I miss
Yeah you live in fascination of the hallucination that you hold all the cards
I'll be honest I trip you trip we all trip were all a part of this thing called being a human being
Yet there's a difference between seeking your potential and failing that which is detrimental
come on and give me the beat
I'll show you who steals the flames heat
just another thing that's normal that I will never know yet another side of me I promise I'll never show
clearly you're mistaken wrong
the day after the day after love and here I am falling deeper and deeper into this stupid catastrophe called love
Only this time its brighter and scarier than ever before because this time I can actually feel something stirring inside me like a long awaited existence I never knew existed the only thing I can do is write incessantly because to express all things out loud could disrupt the natural order of things. I can't help but feel anything but deeper. My life is chaos yet I just want him in it. I've tried not to feel this way trust me I have but my ideals and my walls are crumbling as I breathe Someone please stop this I'm whispering inside by my outsides are screaming an entirely different story I need this and I want this I don't even give a fuck how much its going to hurt if it ends up wounding my heart its a scar I'd gladly endure. There's only so much I can allow myself to believe Like I believe he cares for me not but taking a look at our past I wouldn't dare for it to last. The more I withhold maybe the less i'll die inside when it all falls apart.
you're the best feeling I've ever had
he called me a legend
I'm head over heels
shamelessly into you
leaping aimlessly for you
intimately intertwined
replaying all the takes since you
pressing rewind relaying anything to do with you
I gotta admit you're all there is
welcome to the antagonist mind
I'd like to introduce you to the maniacally egotistical
all rise this is glorification in process
you think you've got an idea of who it is to me be
you only observe the circuitry you don't comprehend the internal work of me
never compare me to the worst of me my enemy
what I am and what I think of me are totally different hypocrisies
All I needed was the thought of losing you to teach me what fear is
I love a man who should be named heaven bc his eyes are the universe sand his hands are all the galaxies intertwined.
grant me what I breathe for deny me that which I greed for
you are my illusion
my one and only sedation
my heart belongs in your left breast pocket
you are what my arteries beat for
devoted incessantly to your fingertips
lost in the qualms of your sweet sweet lips
If I had a wish I'd wish for absolutely nothing more.
give me a stem to stab with my thorns I'm pretty sure I couldn't care less your pinion is not how I'll base my own clean yourself yup your an annihilated mess
can someone help me I'm giving in to me I think the enemy has found a home in me
give me a dopamine hit my moods been killed and it needs revival
consider me an evil grip I'm sure to not let go give me a mind to fill bc mines been boiling over
life couldn't possibly be more shaken I'm sure I'd rather be stirred
transitioning
my youth is almost gone now I'm older
I'm still not sure what being an adult means
I've always had a hard time fitting in
here I am again I can't relate here I am cagain
thought I know I can make a difference somehow
I stood alone then , I stand alone now
Onlyt difference is my yearss
sure of myself more than I've ever been I've always been an oddity quirky I've got a dram to be better than my enemy.
Sometimes I get lost in who I am supposed to be.
Especially when I remember who I used to be
Here I am looking at things I can't have as if having them will somehow fill the voids
Flirting with my madness collaborating with my vices
Disaster is awaiting my fascinations affiliating with enemy my best best frenemy
Giving in to me taking out from you
They say its o kto look as long as you don't touch
I disagree cause my eyes seem to be the most seductive tool in my bag of tricks
Look don't touch my eyees offend so muych
heart racing feet pacing brain spacing
I need me some spirit something
I'm looking but I still can't find me
I need some grace from the depths of me
So I can grant myself a little mercy.
Sometimes I think about how I'm not the prettiest girl in the room
Yet I know I'm still the prettiest
If I could hold all the pain in the world
I'd do so, so that the world could be whole.
I'd filter every fear through my fingertips
I'd use sand to exfoliate away the shame
and my heart to take the blame
Soem days are full of pain
to lead a way for...
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A five star reaction to life
PoetryA collection of my poetry. Little bits of my madness laid bare for all to see.... I like to write in eloquent riddles :) I seen a tattoo today that said art is created out of sadness. I wanted to beg to differ, but my poems hysterically agree. Enjo...