bite.

thirty

any time i fall asleep, it happens. whether it be a twenty minute nap or a full nights sleep, I end up in a random house in a random part of the city. sometimes, i even make it back to billie's house or my apartment with my clothes on.

though im still covered in blood when I get there.

its been two days since the first time. I've somehow made it two days without knowing where the fuck I go when I sleep. In a sense, i think ive gotten used to traveling while I sleep. even though it's only been two days, a total of three times I've sleep traveled to murder a family or two - that I'm aware of - I've seemingly grown accustomed to it.

I don't have panic attacks about it. the first two times, I did, but after the last time, I dont think I ever will. after seeing that heterosexual couple, naked and in bed asleep, tangled in each others arms - both scalped with a hole in both of their temples. I was once again covered in blood, but the sight of their cold bodies didnt phase me. I had covered their bodies with the duvet that covered their lower halves.

billie was at her house, and I at my apartment. we hadn't spent very much time together, as billie had meetings and i was job searching myself. I kind of missed her, especially being home by myself and afraid to fall asleep. this is gonna kill me.

just as i start thinking about billie, my phone pings, signaling that I have a message.

I push my hair back and curl up in my bed, rereading the messages repeatedly until eventually a fall asleep.

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I come to a bit later. it's still dark outside and im standing in front of billie's back door. all lights in the house were on. I look down at my body and see the seemingly endless blood stains.

"fuck," I say to myself, my heartbeat rising quickly. "no, no, no."

I rush through the back door and see billie lying on sofa i made her fall apart on. tears leave my eyes as I walk around the couch, falling to my knees in front of her. I didnt see her chest rising and falling.

"no, baby," i cry, seeing blood dripping from her forehead and onto her over sized white tshirt. "no, this cant be happening." I tell myself, pulling the girl into my arms. I hold her tightly, my entire earth shattering into a million pieces.

dont hate me