HEROIC DEATH SYSTEM

Chapter 114: Re: My Heart Beats For You

简沉锋后来才知道，江东霖和简忻在结婚不久便分房了。他们的感情很好，但在床上就是配合不来。简忻似乎很抗拒江东霖的碰触，甚至说出“恶心”的话。

Only later did Jian Chenfeng find out that Jiang Donglin and Jian Xin slept in different rooms not long after they were married. Their relationship was very good, but they were just not good together on the bed. Jian Xin apparently resisted Jiang Donglin’s touch, going as far as to say it’s “disgusting”.

江东霖有一次喝醉，无意中对简沉锋说：“简忻是不是因为移植了余墨的心脏，所以才会对我这个哥哥产生抵触心理？”

Jiang Donglin once accidentally said something to Jian Chenfeng while drunk, “Was it because Jian Xin has Yumo’s heart that she would be so mentally conflicted toward me, his older brother?”

简沉锋闻言，二话没说就给了他一拳。

Jian Chenfeng gave him a punch right after he said those words.

按照江东霖的逻辑，难道简忻性格大变，也是因为移植了余墨的心脏吗？余墨是那样开朗、那样热爱生活的一个人，即便真的有影响，那也应该是好的一面。

According to Jiang Donglin’s logic, would he say that the reason Jian Xin’s personality changed so much was also because of the transplanted heart from Yumo? Yumo was such a cheerful person, such a passionate person, even if there were influences, shouldn’t it be on the good side?

简沉锋总觉得他认识的余墨，与江东霖认识的并非同一个人。他们明明是亲兄弟，为什么会产生如此巨大的偏差？在江东霖眼中，自己的弟弟似乎一无是处，满身都是缺点。每当此时，简沉锋就希望余墨是自己的弟弟，若是自己的，即便要背负乱伦的骂名，他也会竭尽所能地呵护他、疼爱他。

Jian Chenfeng always felt that the Yumo he knew and the one Jiang Donglin knew weren’t really the same person. They were obviously blood brothers, then why were there such a huge bias between them? In Jiang Donglin’s eyes, his younger brother seems to be lacking any good points and covered in weak points. Every time this happened, Jian Chenfeng would wish that Yumo was his own younger brother. If it were him, even if he had to bear the infamy of incest, he would still do everything in his ability to cherish him, love him.

算了，这都不重要了。

Forget it, none of this was important anymore.

余墨已经去世，他的所有期望都只是美好的幻想。

Yumo was already dead, all his expectations were merely beautiful fantasies.

简沉锋不顾父母的反对，执意收养了一个孩子，也就是简思墨。他将自己所剩无几的感情，全部投注在这个孩子身上。

Jian Chenfeng was determined to adopt a child despite his parent’s protests, and that child was Jian Simo. he threw all of his remaining emotions into this one child.

简思墨也不负所望，十五岁便开始参与公司事务，十八岁后已经可以独当一面。简沉锋当初之所以收养简思墨，是因为他的五官与余墨有四五分相像，结果简思墨后来反而越长越像简沉锋。并非容貌相像，而是气质和性格，都是一副拒人于千里之外的冷面瘫。

Jian Simo also did not disappoint him. At fifteen he started to participate in company affairs, at eighteen he could already take charge of a section by himself. The reason why Jian Chenfeng adopted Jian Simo at first was because his features were forty to fifty percent similar to Yumo. In the end, Jian Simo started to resemble Jian Chenfeng more and more as he grew. It wasn’t his appearance that was similar but his personality, they both held a frozen face that was distant to people.

或许是觉得简思墨长歪了，简沉锋在四十五岁后便不再亲近他。除了工作之外，平时基本没有多余的交流。

Perhaps it was because he felt he was raising him askew, Jian Chenfeng no longer stayed close to him at forty-five. Besides going to work, they usually did not have any more interactions.

这一年，简忻通过试管婴儿，成功生下了一对双胞胎。简家的父母开始着力培养这两个孩子，他们一直不怎么喜欢简思墨，即便他再优秀，也不是他们简家的血脉。

This year, Jian Xin successfully gave birth to a pair of twins through using a test tube baby. Jian Family’s father and mother started to put their efforts into those twins, they always never liked Jian Simo much. Even if he was very outstanding, he was not of their blood.

简思墨以为自己将来必然要为简忻的孩子让位，也没有多做争取，只是专心工作，积累经验，为将来自力更生做好准备。

Jian Simo had believed that he would need to abdicate for Jian Xin’s children in the future and did not fight it. He merely concentrated on working, accumulate experience and make good preparations for his own future.

然而，他没想到，一向对他冷淡的养父，在他去世那年，毫不犹豫地在遗嘱上签下了他的名字。

However, he didn’t expect that his foster father who was always cold to him would sign his name on his will without any hesitation the year he passed away.

停止呼吸的瞬间，简沉锋脸上露出了一个安详而解脱的笑容，简思墨忍不住热泪盈眶。在他记忆中，养父从来不笑，生活总是那么枯燥而乏味，每天都在辛苦的工作。他以为养父只是不知道如何享受生活，如今才发现，他一直以来，只是将活着当作一种无法推卸的责任。

The moment he stopped breathing, Jian Chenfeng’s face revealed a serene and free smile. Jian Simo eyes overflowed with tears at the sight. In his memories, his foster father never smiled, he was always working so dry and tedious, working hard at work every day. He had believed that his foster did not know how to enjoy life, but now he found out that in the past, he was only treating life as if a responsibility he couldn’t avoid.

他的快乐，不在人间。

His happiness no longer existed in the human world.