ICARUS - Hawks x Reader

THIRTY FOUR: Hawkward

I didn't announce myself as I flew down through the open skylight, landing as quietly as I could, trying not to alert my husband.

It still sounds so strange, calling him that...

After placing my satchel on the dining table, I glanced across the room, spotting one of our many blankets...inching across the floor?

For fuck's sake...

Muttering mild profanities to myself, I marched over and yanked the blanket up, one of my poor Roombas beeped with what I translated as a thank you before nyooming off into another room. That noise, however, seemed to officially announce my arrival, and I heard somebody begin to skip up the hallway.

"Where's my Sunshine?!" I uttered a low sigh as Hawks appeared, making a beeline towards me with his arms outstretched.
"This is a great way to break my vacuum." I muttered, holding the purple mink blanket up in my hand, the other coming to rest on my hip. He slowed down, his arms drooping a little along with his wings.

"What, no hugs and kisses? I'm sorry, it just kind of took me off guard when I got back." He laughed it off, running a hand through his windswept blond.
"Right. Just like the last time..." Rolling my (E/C) eyes, I folded the blanket, tossing it over the arm of the couch before turning to face him. "I'm making coffee. Want any?"

"Nah, I'm good. I am lacking some vitamin W though...The W stands for wife!" Grinning, Hawks danced over to me, opening his arms again, but I allowed him to embrace me this time. There was only so much I could ignore when it came to the winged man, and I felt horrible for not wanting to be around him.

"Dummy..." I mumbled under my breath as he squeezed me tight, holding my breath so I wouldn't catch his musky scent. Hawks chuckled as he dipped in for a kiss, but I hurried to spin my head, catching it on the cheek in place of my lips. That was when I felt him stiffen up.
"So, uh...How was work? You didn't answer my calls yesterday, so it must have been pretty busy..?" He asked, releasing me and stepping back, watching me stride towards the percolator.

Why should I tell you that when you won't tell me what you get up to?

"Not really. I spent the majority of yesterday sparring with Tokoyami at UA, so I was tired." I explained briefly, bending to collect my favourite mug from the lower cupboard. "Before that I was dealing with paperwork."
"Ah...Sounds pretty fun..."

The silence that fell upon us was painfully heavy. I was internally battling it out, wanting to both wrap myself around him and just reject his presence altogether. It just kept getting worse each time he came and went.

"H..how about we order in some chow and watch (F/Show) tonight? Cuddle up on the couch like we used to, hmm?" Hawks sounded like he was grasping at straws, and I ground my molars together before answering rather curtly.
"I already have plans to have dinner with Hakamata tonight. You can come, if you want."

Why can't I just deal with this like an adult?!

Unexpectedly, Hawks didn't start whining or moping about my attitude, instead, he just leant against the dining table, looking to the ground.
"Yeah, sounds like a plan..." He tapped his fingers against the wood, flickering his gaze to me on every offbeat. "I really missed you..."

I waited until I had finished pouring my coffee, grabbing the jar of sugar and staring at it for a stupidly long amount of time.
"Yeah...I...miss you too..."

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"...So it has been quite the godsend, having her help out these past few weeks." Best Jeanist concluded, dabbing around the material where he had been passing his food through. Hawks nodded, rolling a meatball around with his fork as his head rested in the palm of his hand.
"Glad to hear it. Didn't I tell you she'd make a great hero?" He gave me a warm smile, which I returned with a plastic twang. I was beyond uncomfortable.