Ashiah Symone Bryier
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Ever since Kentrell told me he cheated on me we been constantly arguing. It be over the dumbest shit ever and honestly I'm drained from it
I need to get away again, I need to be alone. Just to think about my next steps and what ima do with my life now
I'm becoming depressed more and more as time go by. Why the fuck would he do something like that?
Kentrell been in my life since seventh grade, middle school. He been by my side through everything and he just completely threw everything out
I knew someday he was gone go back to his old ways. He was still the same person throughout the relationship, he just showed it behind closed doors
It'll be times where I would have to calm him down and talk to him. I was there every night holding his ass down when he wanted to kill his self
Still to this day he wanna leave this world, but K'Saun need him. I need him — nah I don't need shit but myself
I meant it when I said I don't want Kentrell around him. Sometime down the future I will change my mind but as of now no
Kentrell bought a new house the same day he told me he cheated. He move tomorrow, and I got mixed emotions about that
But I gotta let his ass get the fuck on
"where you going with that on?" Kentrell asked coming in the kitchen looking at me
I ignored him as I continued to blow on K'Saun Oatmeal. He cleared his throat causing me to look at him
"what?" I asked mugging him and he jerked his head back mugging me
"Where you going with that on?" he asked again
"fuck you so worried fa'?"
"cause I can, you think you leaving out the house with that on?"
"Kentrell yes, yes I am finna leave and you can't do nothing. You ain't my nigga, so therefor leave me alone"
He chuckled before giving me a death glare
"bet" he walked out the kitchen and I ain't really pay him no attention
I finished feeding K'Saun his oatmeal before we left
"don't put this everywhere in my car" I said handing K'Saun some crackers before he smiled showing his three teeth
"ma no" he said causing me to look at him weirdly as I handed his IPad to him "da da, daddy"
I shook my head 'no' and mumbled a little
"fuck yo' daddy" I muttered and he started laughing which caused me to chuckle
this boy is goofy as hell and I love it. He begin to say 'fuck', but I stopped him before he frowned
"you bad as fu— you bad"
I pulled off before we pulled up to my auntie house. I got K'Saun out the car before going in
"we leaving in the next ten minutes, so be ready" my auntie said as she put her shoes on before I nodded
"let me hold him" my cousin said reaching for K'Saun, I let her take him knowing I was gone have him back
He ain't gone do nothing but cry and she ain't gone wanna hear it. As soon as she sat him down on her lap he started crying and she gave him back
"he a fucking character" she said mugging him causing me to laugh. K'Saun started to say 'fuck' again but I covered his mouth
"y'all got that baby tryna cuss" my auntie said laughing and shaking her head
"that ain't my fault" I said holding my hands up in surrender
"she know it's her fault" Laila said laughing and I shook my head
"well he gone be a bad lit' boy, he already look like his daddy" I rolled my eyes at the thought of Kentrell popping up in the conversation
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"why you acting like that?" my momma asked as she handed me a cup of water
"Acting like what?"
"Like you got something to say but you won't say it" I shrugged and looked down before shaking my head
" i ain't got nothing to say"
"yes you do, and take that cover from off him. It's hot, now talk" I took the cover from over K'Saun before looking back at her
"I ain't got nothing to say, what you want me to say?"
"Shit I don't know, but you got something to say. You hiding something, you my child I know"
I debated on if I should tell my momma bout me and Kentrell. It done been two weeks and I still ain't tell her
I don't know how she don't know cause it's all over the internet
"ma Kentrell cheated on me" saying it out loud just made me burst into tears, I can't help it cause I held this in long enough
"I told yo' ass, you don't listen Shiah. What I told you when y'all first got together?"
I didn't say nothing, I couldn't cause at this point I'm still speechless
"I told you y'all was better off best friends, you know what these niggas about. I ain't raised you like that, not for you to be sitting in my face crying bout a nigga.
Kentrell a good person, but you knew how he was with them hoes. Yeah, he treated you different from them cause he look at you different. That don't mean he won't do you how he did them. I warned you and youn listen"
"he ain't even like that with me" I said before she sucked her teeth
"He is though cause if he wasn't y'all would still be together. And don't be dumb and get back with him"
.... I wouldn't get back with him if it came down to it
would I?
love will make you do some dumb shit, but is it worth it in the end?
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