My absolute favorite song
In the whole world blasts
From the speaker on my bedside table
I laugh as I jump
And dance around my empty roomHere I am the greatest performer to have ever lived
Here is a world untouched by youHere is where I remembered what it felt like
To be carefree and unburdened
By the weight of your problems
Here is where I cried myself to sleep
And licked my wounds better without youHere is where I dyed my hair pink
With my best friends
Because I wanted to -
And because you didn't want me toIn my room is where I practiced smiling
At my reflection
Until I felt that it was real
In my room is where I found out that
My smile had gotten bigger since you leftHere is where I regained my youth
That thing you tried to take from me
With empty promises
And sweet wordsHere is where I realized
Being mature for my age is a good thing
In small doses
Because I don't want to miss out
On what I have while it's right in front of meAnd sure, here is where I laid in my bed
And I remembered the way you hugged me
Arms wrapped so tightly around my waist
I couldn't breathe in the best wayAnd I cried when I laughed at the ghosts
Of your fingertips tickling me
In the middle of the nightBut here is where I realized
I like me better when you're not around
I didn't know the me that existed
When she was with youShe changed when she was out there with you
But here?
She came back
And livedI am truly alive because I am here
With my favorite song in the whole world
Playing on the speaker
Dancing around like no one is watchingWaving my pink hair from side to side
I am living unapologetically here
And my glow is so bright nowMaybe even you could bask in it
But you'll have to stay over there
DU LIEST GERADE
Yellow Paint : A Collection of Midnight Thoughts
PoesieAn ever-growing manifesto of the musings that keep me up at night Vincent Van Gogh used to eat yellow paint because he thought making his insides bright would make him happy. Writing is my yellow paint.