Maybe, Probably-Benverly

💛Chapter 21💛

A/N THIS IS GONNA PROBABLY BE SHORT
February 18th
Bevs POV
This is the first day I'm at a full day of school without Ben. It feels so weird that the one person who sort of enjoys school isn't here. Eddie was feeling the same way without Richie which caused to become a bit irritable and on top of that, Stan and Mike both got sick so Bill was alone too. We were all sitting at lunch together with solemn looks on our faces.
"This feels so weird" Bill piped up
"I know right?" I said
Eddie just groaned.
"How in the hell did Stan and Mike get sick at the exact same time? What type of shit is that?" Bill said
I just shrugged.
"I miss them" he said resting his head on his hand.
"Aww, you're so whipped" Eddie said
"Don't talk to me about whipped Kaspbrak, you practically worship the ground Richie walks on" Bill said
"Fuck you, no I don't" Eddie snapped
"One time, you called me at 3am just to take about how much you loved Richie just because you both were too afraid to admit your feelings for each other"
I said
Eddie blushed and looked down at his lap.
Bill and I were laughing and soon Eddie joined in.
"What's the most nicest thing any of them did for you?" I asked
"I remember one time Mike and Stan set me up a whole movie night and picnic just because I was having a bad day. They had sunflowers all around us, because they know it's my favorite flower, they had fake candles and it was just perfect" Bill said smiling thoughtlessly at the fond memory
"What about you Eddie?" Bill asked
"I mean as crass as Richie can be, one time, I had a panic attack and I called Richie and not even five minutes later he was bursting through my door and he sat on the floor with me and held me and he told me how much he loved me and that everything was gonna be ok and I just felt so much in that moment but i felt his love the most" Eddie said
"Awww" Bill and I said
"What about you Bev?" Eddie asked me
"Ben's a sweetheart we all know this, so like it's hard to pick which one of his actions was the best, but, on Valentines Day he did give me a notebook he would write a bunch of poems in and I read through it and they're all just really beautiful. There's one I remember clearly though, it said
Your Hair Is Winter Fire
January Embers
My Heart Burns There Too
and I was just smiling so hard my cheeks turned red and I don't know, it's weird someone like him loves me so much you know?" I said
"Bev, you know you're capable of being loved right?" Eddie said
"Yes I know, just times where he does the smallest things to make me feel so loved and appreciated, just feels weird at times" I told them
"I get it, but you deserve someone like Ben, he keeps you grounded" Bill said
"I know, just not having much experience with love in my life, this will take some getting used to still" I said
"Just don't think that you don't deserve to be loved" Eddie said
"Thanks guys"

😱HEY GUYS ITS BEEN A MINUTE, JUNIOR YEAR IS ALREADY KICKING MY ASS SO MY TIME GOES TO THAT SO IM SORRY ILY ALL😱
~Asia🏳️‍🌈