Anthology of Random Thoughts

Love & Consequential Heartbreak

If I must fall, then I am glad it was you.

For all the time I was alone, for once I was not.

The ice in my soul was thawed, to embrace spring.

If regret is imminent, at least I had felt alive.

If it was an illusion, it was still love.

From every word exchanged, for every sound we say

I drown in desire.

From every step I take in the dark, I wonder if you ever think of me

With each breath, treading alone in the mist

Will you hear me cry?

will the path be the one, to where you are?

I wish it to be so.

please accept all of my heart,

all of my empty soul,

fill it with your warmth

and even if it is not real

I will still seek you out

even if all the shadows pass me by,

even if my eyes can no longer see

I will seek for a glimpse.

I do not wish to monopolize your time,

I only wish for you to give me a little piece of your heart

in exchange, I will give you, what I can

from the depths of my heart, my cold soul

I will give you all of what I can offer

from the tips of my hair, to the bottom of my soles

I will become your marionette

I will dance on the palm of your hands

I will be happy to be on the tips of your fingers

gently caressing my face, my skin, my heart

even if I am not the one, where you have many to choose

I wish to be a sweet memory

of the one you had left behind

maybe someday you will go back,

one day you will think

there was someone, vaguely, who wanted you

your attention, your voice, your heart, your love

but i am gone, a vague imagery of something

that could've been, should've been, would've been

as you lay next to someone else

who fulfills you

in a way I will never be able to

there will be a hole

there will be someone else for you

as I search for a way to fill that hole

the imprint of you lingering in my mind

you needn't love me the way i love you

my empty self, and your gentle self

your sweetness, your calmness, your patience

who will be as kind as you are to me?

I am willing to drown in the ocean,

and embrace the seeping darkness and cold

just for a small piece

and to be a memory

If every teardrop fallen, can exchange for a glance

I will gladly keep the tears flowing,

Just a moment of your time,

For a future that we can touch.

But all was just a lie.

Even if I give you my all, you will not look towards me,

not in the way I look at you.

We were not fated to be lovers - not even friends.

Your love was a lie.