Nico is a little. A lonely one. An anorexic one. His only love is his stuffies and rollerskating. He's never had anyone, and no ones had him. He's so close to death he might as well already be dead.
Rowan is a CEO. Of one of the biggest companies in...
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✨✨ I froze in fear and stared at him.
"I'm not-" I tried to say before I was interrupted.
"Then why do you have these?" Rowan asked, grabbing the pacifier and examining it.
I put my head down and stared at the ground. Now he really thought I was weird. He was going to beat me up and leave me to die before he left. How could I ever like him? He made me feel so safe and loved and now he was going to make fun of me and leave me.
"Please don't make fun of me. I-I can't help it. It just happens. I'm sorry I didn't want you to know I'm so sorry. Please don't hurt me," I cried, dropping to the floor and covering my face.
He's going to hate me. I bet he already does hate me. I'm too soft and unlikeable. I act like a baby for Pete's sake! No one could ever like me.
"Sh sh sh baby it's okay. I'm not going to make fun of you or hurt you baby I promise. I'm sorry I snooped I'm your room buddy. It'll all be okay." Rowan soothed, wrapping me in his arms.
I sat there and cried. How could he possible be this gentle and caring? He made me feel butterflies in my stomach and love in my heart. Is it possible I like Rowan?
He rubbed my back while he placed his other hand on my head. I cried into his shoulder. I don't know why I cry so much. I think it's because of how sick I am with anorexia and because I'm constantly in little space.
Rowan made shushing sounds in an attempt to calm me down. It worked very well and after a few moments I stopped crying and sniffled and hiccuped instead.
He grabbed my face and made me look him in the eyes, "Baby boy it's okay. I'm a daddy for littles like you. I don't think your weird or anything and I certainly won't hurt you in any way whatsoever."
I nodded and sniffled. It made me feel a whole lot better that he was a daddy.
What if he was my daddy?
No, that's impossible. I can't think like that. No one could ever love me.
Rowan picked me up and carried me to the couch. He whispered calming things in my ear as we laid down and he cuddled me. I think I'll never understand why he loves me so much.
"I-I'm sorry for c-c-crying," I whimpered, "I don't k-know I don't know why I do it so much."
Rowan shushed me and grabbed my face, "It's okay Nico. I understand your more sensitive and softer then others. I know I don't know you much and I don't know a lot about you but I want to get to be your friend or something more. Does that sound good baby boy?"
I nodded, snuggling into his chest as he rubbed my back. Everything about Rowan was perfect. The way he moved, his looks, his body, his personality, everything was perfect. How did someone so perfect end up in my life?
"Now baby boy, we gotta get some food in your tummy and mine as well. Since you have no food here how about we go to my place?" He explained, lifting me up and putting me on his hip.
I froze in fear at the thought of food. I did not want to eat at all. I was way too fat for that. I instantly left little space and started thrashing around to be put down. I dropped from Rowan's arms and ran to my room and hid in my blankets.
I think he could tell why I had an outburst. I'm sorry but I do not want to eat at all. Eating is the last thing I want to do.
Rowan came into my room and sat on my bed at the foot of me. We sat like that for a few minutes before he finally spoke.
"How about we start small. You can have some apple sauce and some grapes alright? You have to eat baby boy." He explained, picking me up from my fort of blankets and setting me on his lap.
"I-I guess that's okay." I responded. I knew I was going to have to eat either way and he would make me. I just won't eat the rest of the day.
"Okay buddy. Let's get going shall we?" He offered, picking me up and carrying me to the door.
"Wait! I wanna bring my stuffy..." I exclaimed, wriggling out of his grasp and grabbing my favorite bear stuffy named Honey.
He chuckled and grabbed my hand, "Okay Nico, bring your stuffy and one of your pacis okay?"
I nodded and grabbed my favorite paci that had a dinosaur on it.
We walked out to the apartment parking lot and he put me in the back seat of the car. I pouted for a bit because I wasn't in the front seat but I soon got over it.
We rode for a little bit before we pulled up into his drive way. He had a very nice modern house with a cute little garden bed and an adult sized basketball hoop.
He got out and opened the door for me and picked me up. I had my paci in and was holding my stuffy. He carried me into the house and set me down on his living room couch. I waited for the dreaded time to come that I would have to eat.
I didn't want to get fat again. I really didn't. If he made me eat anything more today I will throw a tantrum. I never want to eat again but I know Rowan was going to make me.
He grabbed the apple sauce and grapes and put it on a plate.
"Do you want me to feed you?" He asked, setting my plate down on the table while he grabbed his own food.
"Yes please..." I responded quietly, putting my paci in my overall pocket and walking to the table with Honey.
He set his food down at the opposite end of the table and pulled his chair up next to me. He grabbed the spoon and grabbed some applesauce. He brought it up to my mouth and I opened letting him feed me.
This wasn't all that bad when someone else is feeding you. I liked the apple sauce and the grapes a lot. They tasted nice.
Why was I thinking this? This shit is going to make me fat again!
After a few grapes and all the apple sauce I shook my head telling him I can't eat anymore. My stomach felt really full and about to blow, I guess it's because I never eat.
He nodded and put the grapes I didn't eat in the fridge again. He sat on the other side of his table and started eating his food. I sat quietly and sucked on my pacifier and played with Honey.
