Nico is a little. A lonely one. An anorexic one. His only love is his stuffies and rollerskating. He's never had anyone, and no ones had him. He's so close to death he might as well already be dead.
Rowan is a CEO. Of one of the biggest companies in...
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I sighed into the mirror. The glare from the sunlight in the window stretched across my eyes, making it hard to see. I could see just enough through the shine to see my body. I've been eating more then I should have. A lot more. 500 calories a day.
I've been out with friends. Normally my cupboards are empty and the fridge only has tea and milk in it. The last two days my best friend Lorelei brought some of her food over since she knows I struggle. It's been hard keeping away from it. I hate when I binge.
To my friends I'm struggling with money and that's why I don't eat. To me- I'm sick. My stomach isn't soft like it used to be and my face is sunken in. My ribs stick out and my legs are thin as twigs. It's not enough. I'm still worthless and obese. I still need to lose.
Enough about that. There's no need to waste time on the bad when good things can be happening. I pulled my sweater back over my stomach and grabbed out my phone. I had a text from Lorelei.
Lorey Bear 🐻 Hey nicooo- wanna go clubbing with me at 8 later? The boys are coming too.
Nico Yeah sure. Where we going?
Lorey Bear 🐻 Gay club downtown. Heard of Dr.Sexys Gay and Night Club?
Nico Sounds good. See you then.
I sighed. Guess I was going clubbing tonight. I really wanted to stay home with my stuffies and just regress into my headspace but I guess not. It's so stress and anorexia free when I'm little. It's like all my big kid problems don't exist.
No I don't have a caregiver. I've never been in a relationship. Never had sex, never even kissed anybody. Most I've done is cuddled and held hands with Lorelei. However- we would never date each other. She's a lesbian and I'm gay. We see each other as really close best friends and that's all we'll ever be.
I stared at my baby blue walls. I needed decoration. I had no posters or drawings up on the walls yet. I want to get some space pictures and rocket ship blueprints and others to hang up. I'm an astrophysics major in college. It's tough stuff but I like to be challenged. I love to study space and the stars and planets and galaxies. It makes me feel like I'm contributing to the advancement of our society. If only.
I know I won't do anything special. I'm just gonna grow old and die. I'm not gonna have a husband and I'm okay with that. I know no one would go for me. I've just given up at this point. I know no one will love me like that but it's okay; all I need is my friends and family. If you'd call my family a family.
My moms a drunk and druggie. She loves her coke and booze. She hardly ever was a mother to me throughout my childhood. We ignored each other and that was that. The house was a mess and moldy and disgusting and that was that.
