~Put Yourself First~

~ Good Bad~

So what if I wake up with a attitude?
You assumin' that I must be mad at you
Didn't get no sleep with you last night
Know it hurts when I swerve, but I had to
So what if I wake up with a attitude?
You assumin' that I must be mad at you

Have you ever hurt so bad in the morning that you can not pick your head up and get your day started? Have you ever woke up with an attitude and it may be for no reason? If not you must not be human. I have had sleepless nights because my relationship had good / bad behaviors. When I say good /bad behaviors I am referring to June 12,2016 it was a nice sunny day in a dark and cold room because of a wrecken night with a man I thought was the love of my life.... The smell of marijuana off of his clothes ,red blushy eyes, a constant vibrating phone, and a language of disrespect that was out of this world. What did I do to bring him to this? What did I do to be put in a choke hole? What did I do to get a remote threw at my head? what did I do to get a heater
slapped across my face ? The only thing I did was ask him about a young lady that dropped him off after work. Is a girl wrong for asking who dropped you off at home? I think tf not because if another man was to drop me off at home the tables will change. I had been in this relationship for 8 months now and it did not seem to be the roses that he promised me. I was disrespected and abused in our 6th month, I know your now wondering why did I not leave since it was so early, and it is because I do not believe in giving up ! I still got up and cooked breakfast, drove him to work, and etc. ( even was okay with him not having his own because I was willing to grow together At the age 18)

I was not raised to give up easily but I was raised to know my worth. It hurts to know that my heart is so big and loving that I prayed for God to change him and help him through his situations he may have been facing, being that he was not himself in the 5th month. Days would be great with walks in the park and days will be bad with him abusing me with words and physically. I got to the point of not being good enough! Not being what he wanted but this is where I get up! I CONQUERED AND I FAUGHT BACK ! I REFUSED TO BE CHEATED ON, LIED TO , AND BEATED ON WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE LOVED AND CHERISHED. I noticed in life ladies you cannot expect something from a boy that was not raised to be a man, you can not request to be treated like a queen if he does not have the training or you are not the queen he may see in his near future.

I share my story to say yes you have the good/ bad in relationships but ladies know your worth! KNOW THAT GOD ALWAYS HAVE YOU IF YOU DO DECIDE TO LEAVE the good/ bad relationship AND IF YOU ARE AFRAID TO BE ALONE! It is okay to leave and remove yourself. It is not okay to be unhappy, down, and depressed! As a women you are a caregiver naturally but do NOT care for something that does not want to be cared about ! You have to put your safety and self first before others. If it was others they would do the same!

SO I SAY THIS AGAIN LEAVE AN Unhealthy RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE IT IS NOT OKAY TO STAY IN A ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP AND THATS PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY ~ GOD GOT YOU !!! LEAVE! LIKE AND COMMENT ❤️

Okay that is part 2 of my short story series I hope you all enjoyed(: