Don't wave me good bye (cash/nameron) boyxboy

Chapter 45

Cameron POV

Tears still streaming down my face, harshly. The way he left me, the way he said good bye to me..the way his lips lingering when he tried to hold his tears.. Now i can't call him mine..

Why am i so blind..why am i doing this? Why did i let him go..why??! I just want him back in my arms.

I miss his lips, his eyes, his voice and his smile..i just want to feel it again and see it again. But, he's not mine..

Nash..the way he talks, the way he walks..the way he bites his lips when he's confused, the way he brush his hand up to his soft hair, the way he laughed, the way he hold my hands..i miss it so much..

He's the reason why i want to live, he's the reason why I survived, he was the reason i cried every single night when he wasn't around me

The pain of remembering him when i was with him. My heart broke Into a pieces as you go. Love never leave any of us, it was my fault that i couldn't left her to be with him

"I fucked up.." I said to myself "i'm so fucked up!"

"C-cam??you okay??.." Matt

"Matt..i-i'm sorry..if i was scaring you. I don't mean that..j-just stressed out.." I sighed

"It's okay cam..i just want to say that me and the boys are going home" he said chuckling

"Ooh..okey then, um matt..where's nash??" I asked muttering

"I don't know where he is, but he told me that we should go home.." Matt shrugged

Where is he?

"Ooh..okey then, thanks matt for the information, you should go now it's already late" i said

"Be careful cam..and take care of her kay?? Good bye cammy!" He shouted as he left me

"Good bye matt!" I shouted back

To be honest, i just want to go home and searching for nash.. I want to hold him..i still loved him, even when he loved me in the different way

I walked into the room and smile at sheina..

"Hey.." She said as she hold my hand "cam are you okay?? Have you been crying.."

"No no no, i'm not.." I lied "i was laughing to hard with the boys"

She knew that i lied, but she ignored it and smile at me

"Have you ate??" She asked, breaking the silence between us

"N-no, I haven't" i stuttered

"Cam, go downstairs to the cafeteria and eat.." She groaned

"But i want to stay here, what if--"

"Don't overreacted cam..i'm okay" she giggled

"But--"

"Please for me??" She begged, squeezing my hand

"Find then, i'm going to eat.." I sighed, stood up from my seat and kissed her temple "i'll be back.."

"And i'll wait here.." She said smiling

Grabbed my wallet and phone, I shut her door slowly, and headed down the stairs towards the cafeteria

To be honest, i'm not hungry at all.. I can't eat, cause i don't feel like eating after the broke up thing..with nash.. I just still can't accept the truth that he's not mine.. He used to be my love, my boyfriend.. But now? We're back..as a bestfriend and brothers

"May i help you??" The cashier said

"Uh, one water bottle please??"

"That would be $xx " she said as she hand me the water bottle. I gave her the money and walk out of the cafeteria

I decided to get some fresh air.. I walk to the back of the hospital, there's a beautiful park.. But then, i stopped.

"Aww thankyou so much..you're beautiful.." He said smiling giving her a hug and kiss her temple

He's such a sweet man, why did i let him go.. I asked to myself

There was he, in the park..talking with a young girl..i bet she's 7 years old. She's beautiful..

"Nashy, do you think i'm pretty??everybody said that i'm ugly because i don't have a hair.." She mumbled playing with her hands

"Hey, hey, hey..stop..you're beautiful, even when you don't have a hair..you still looking gorgeous as always.." He said rubbing her hands

I felt myself crying, he just so perfect..he just so kind and lovely

"Nash..did you know that i'm not last longer?? They said i'm gonna die..soon" she sighed, nash quickly hug her and i could see nash eyes wet

"Hey..remember that you're going to be one of their beautiful angel" he said kissing her temple

"I hope so.." She said smiling "nashy, do you want to walk me back??to my room??"

"Of course darling, come on.." He stood up and pick her up to her room

Why am i so fucked up?

Nash POV

"Good night beautiful..sleep tight okay?" I said as i wrapped a blanket around her

I kissed her temple for the last time, close the door and sighed. She's so brave and strong to face this kind of death

"Shit, it's almost 11 PM" i hissed

I walk back to the lobby and start to search for a taxi. The boys already left me, oh well..

"Nash.." I turned around, it was cam

Okey, act casual nash..act casual. He's your bestfriend now..

"Oh hey cam.." I said smiling weakly

"what are you doing here??" We both said simultaneously

"Um well i was about to go to the cafeteria..how about you??" He said

"I was about to search a taxi.." I muttered "how's sheina??"

"S-she's good.." He said

I was about to put my hands on my pocket, when i felt there's nothing on my pocket..where the frick is my wallet

"Whe--"

"Catch!" He said, my head shoot up and catch the wallet, breathless..what?

"Thankyou..wait..how did you.." I frowned

"Nash..you always be nash.." He chuckled

"Uhuh..um i should go home now.." I said, gladly there's a lot of taxi..

"Nash??" He called

"Yeah??" Before i turn my head, he hugged me tightly in his arms

"I knew I couldn't be like that you ask, but i'll try to be as you ask" he whispered, made my eyes sprang open

"Cam, i should go.." I mumbled as i get rid off him and get into the taxi

"Bye nash.." He sighed waving good bye

---to be continued---

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