bleeding heart || stuff

dumb bitch juice.

i need a sticker of that to put on my water bottle.

anyway.

i have a playlist i started called 'dbj' which stands for the title of this part. i'm going through shit rn but the short and bare minimum info is that i ended an almost 7 year friendship because someone that isn't me can't get off the dumb bitch juice.

(like?? you rlly gonna pick a dude over your friends wow )

anyway. this playlist is a mix of 'fuck you', 'hey i'm sad', and 'this is for the best' songs. i haven't made it on spotify yet but here-

i cut at least twenty songs off of this list okay pls enjoy

warnings// i'm being a raging cunt in some of my elaborations. i act so immature but this was therapeutic for me. it'll probably be taken down soon

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gaynsad | lil phag
literally just for the chorus and the line 'sipping on that dumb bitch juice'

i am bi and sad lmao

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wish u the best | blackbear
this is a fuck you song lmao so fun to scream along to in the truck

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white trashing | nicole dollanganger
idk why i put this one but it's more of an im right here with you thing but
there's just something that tells me it belongs.

'and all that glitters is not gold, and this same place is getting old. but dreams are fulfilled where the purple grass grows and i can see it all just beyond my window'

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wide awake | hot milk
this is stuff i just recently started listening to so it isn't tainted by memories??

' wide awake, and question everything '
' there's no heart, no morals, no regard '

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the quiet | troye sivan
'i'd rather be spitting blood than have this silence fuck me up'

and troye sivan just holds better memories bc his music is associated with a friend who is 100x the person the other could ever hope to be

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playing god | paramore
this song has ties to the last friendship i ended and it just belongs here

'next time you point your finger, i'll point you to the mirror'

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wish we never met | whohurtyou
goddammit. this one is about a relationship but i still equate it to this bc this person literally had a piece of my heart and soul in her stubby little fingers and she lit it on fire

' part of you still fucks me up. and i know i should live without regrets, but i wish we never met '

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world away | tonight alive
'this is not a punishment, this is my catalyst for growth. i know i will survive this, i'll be the strongest person i know'

this is just rlly empowering and i need that right now

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your dog | soccer mommy
'i don't wanna be your fucking dog that you drag around'

i'm done getting dragged into stupid shit and anxiety inducing situations. i only put up with it because i loved this girl with my entire heart. one of my platonic soulmates, y'know?

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where i belong | ryan ross
i cry to this song and i can't help tearing up every time i hear it but it's healing, i guess.