We all have experienced a time where the blades keep us the best of company. A time where we think that life's playing a game on us. A game that makes people think you are living a perfectly normal life but what they actually thought was far from the painful reality you were facing.
Masaya. Sabi ng lahat ay masiyahin daw akong tao base sa ngiting lagi nilang nakikita sa'kin.
Mabait. Mabait at mapagbigay raw ako kahit sa mga taong di naman malapit sa'kin.
At higit sa lahat maswerte raw ako, maswerte raw ako sa buhay na mayroon ako.
Ngunit sa lahat ng 'to ay diyan sila pinaka nagkamali dahil di ko maiwasang amining pinangarap ko na sana, sana hindi nalang ito ang buhay na meron ako.
Sa bawat daan na tinatahak ko sa pasilyo ng paaralang ito ay may mga taong nakapalibot sa'kin ngunit bakit parang mag-isa lang ako? Na kahit sabihin pa ng iba na ang swerte ko raw dahil marami akong kaibigan ay iba parin sa pakiramdam, na parang nakakalungkot dahil di mo maramdaman ang sinasabi nilang 'pagkakaibigan'.
Kung totoo lang sanang maswerte ako sa buhay na meron ako ay di ko magagawang kwentsunin ang buhay na ibinigay sa akin, pero sadyang madaya ang mundo dahil ang inaakala ng lahat na magandang buhay ay isang ilusyon lang pala.
At times I felt so lonely, I felt so used, I felt so unimportant.
Was I really just someone taken for granted? Was I really just important at those times people needed me?
I've let people invade my life without realizing that the people I ought to trust just used me for their sake and anytime they could use those against me.
I feel so stupid.
Am I really just overthinking? Or are these the truth that I've let myself believe in order to protect myself from the pain I may feel once I realize it?
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