SEYMOUR ENGLANDER
My Mother Died
Before I Could Murder Her
A Novel
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the
product of the authors’ imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to
actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales are not
intended to refer to specific places or persons and are coincidental.
Copyright © 2011 Seymour Englander
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 0-6154-4542-X
ISBN-13: 9780615445427
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Oh dear……
I stood in the doorway to my mother’s darkened hospital
room and could make out in the light from the corridor that she
was sleeping. Quickly I moved into the room and up to her
bedside.
“Mom.” No response. Again, “Mom.” She was fast asleep. For
a long moment I watched her lips pursed like those of a hungry
goldfish sucking as it hunted for food in the limited supply of water
in the goldfish bowl. I leant forward and in the quiet, heard the
constant, gentle “phooo…phooo…phooo…” as her regular breathing
let me know that she was still alive.
I placed my hand on her arm. No reaction. Gently I squeezed
her hand. Nothing. I looked around the room. I was alone. I took a
deep breath. It was now or never. I moved one of her pillows up
and across her face, covering her mouth. I stood still, listening,
watching for any reaction as I started to apply gentle downward
pressure. Then I pressed a little harder. Her hand reached onto the
pillow as if trying to grab at some invisible force pressing down,
and then with a feeble twitch, fell back.
I kept up the downward pressure, causing the pillow to cut
off her air supply and stop her breathing. All of a sudden everything
was still, and silent. I rested my head on the pillow trying to hear if
she was still moving or alive. She wasn’t. I had killed her. I started
to cry.
“Excuse me. Are you okay?” I felt a hand gently rock my
shoulder. I opened my eyes. The air stewardess looked at me as if I
was really stressed. And I was. I was hyperventilating. Tears
streamed down my face as I cried into the small passenger pillow I
held up to the side of my head.
I nodded. “I’m fine, thank you.”
This wasn’t the first time I dreamed that I had murdered my
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