Now Everybody Knows

Prolog; When it all happened (Chapter 1)

What are you going to do when all of your life so suddenly got a path that's not even created by your own? What are you going to do when you put so much effort to make things happen and they just don't? What are you going to do when you think that you want to give up? Me? I was happy, now I don't want to say that I'm not, it's just, I'm a bit less happy now...

Why you ask? Oh, I don't know where to begin. Let's say my life now is a series of train wreck. My family wants me stay at home, forever, My relationship is not and I believe it will never going anywhere with his ignorance on my feelings, I disappoint so many people, friends, colleagues, co-workers, even myself. Well, at least I have a job and I'm very good at it. It all begins when I decided to leave to Jakarta to take the job offer that my boss now offered to me in March 2015. Passed four years already? Wow, time sure fly very fast like a Higgs Boson in C.E.R.N. It is happened when two atoms are collide together and when the particles blows up, there, you can see (it is not easy, trust the scientist) in a matter of nanosecond, there will be a new particle that created by the collision of the two atoms, the God's particle they said. Anyway, I took the offer and I was pretty happy because it is my first real job, I will be actually making money from my own sweat. I took it as a part of my way to show that I can also get a job. It was really hard because it seems that it's only me who's left out in my "gang".

Yes, I have a dysfunctional circle of nine best friends that it is so dysfunctional it feels right. We love each other so much, we rarely said it, but I know we are. We met in college, we applied for the same Photography Club and since that day, we never leave each other ashtray.

So I begin my living alone life, away from my family, even away from my friends at first. I lived a boring life, I admit that, but I was living happily with all of my simple things, woke up in the morning, washed myself, get ready to work, in the office, chit chat over lunch with some co-workers, and then go home, made dinner and sleep and repeat. Don't get me wrong, I do go out on weekends, grab a beer with some old friends, went karaoke; eat in a nice restaurant when I'm feeling to eat a fancy gourmet food. I thought that why don't I make the best out of it, being alone. Why don't I look for some hook-ups, not that I love hooking up with random guys, it's just, I felt like to do it. There was I, looking for "Sleeping Buddies" every weekend, Oh good days...

I went out with different guys, almost every weekend, just to get away with my stress from work, I know, I know, that was merely a pity denial to get some. My life was better than the life I had before. Hooking up with guys gives me a boost of confidence. Really! For your information, I'm not like most of Indonesian standard of beauty which are slim girls with pretty faces, almost oriental faces if you need to know. But I don't care about that, I never was, because I always thought, a beautiful face and body fades overtime, but a good woman will still be a good woman. Sometimes I think about all those beauty standards anyway, not lying, and as I told you, those experiences I had with guys, gave me an extreme boost of confidence. I networked well, I worked well, and I never think that I will fail in anything.

One day, my best friend at work asked me, she said, gee, don't you feel lonely, going out with guys and never trying to make one relationship works, and then I think. I have to start to think about my future. I want to be a wife and a mum also, just like every other girl in this gracious earth since the first year. Eve has Adam, and so does every child and grandchildren and great grandchildren they had and so on, and so on, they all have somebody to share their life with, and I think, no matter how hard it will be, If you have someone you can trust and live your life with him/her, everything will be just fine like when you think that you are out of food, you came home, open the fridge, and there is food. Like when you walk home from work and you were tired, but soon that frown will be turned upside down because some silly things your life partner does every time they know you are having a bad day or you just exhausted from the events of the day that you had to encounter. That's it. That is my simple yet complicated life goal. I'm not naïve, of course I will do other things like working and socialize and having insurance, things that I think it's not that excited to write down.

So there was I, looking for my possible life partner, sometimes I forgot about my duties in office. I get carried on with the magic of finding my true love. My friends even told me that sometimes they think that I just popped out from Hallmark's Cards into this world because I believe in true love. I had three relationships in over five months. I know, those are just some mistakes that I did but I did found someone after that and we are still together until now, together in our complicated life. I didn't have any time to sit down and accidentally have a new acquaintance and then be friends and so on. So then I use the app, where you can find people nearby. In a very devastating moment of break up, I told myself, I will talk to one guy, and one guy only. If he replies, I will meet him and talk and see what is going to happen next, if not, then I will just delete the app and continue moving forward living my boring life as it is.

I opened my phone and said to myself, first guy and first guy only, and there he was, the very first guy I saw on top of the lists. Very nice picture and I can see that he has some Arabic blood running through his veins.

I was telling myself to be brave, I texted him:
Wanna hang out tonight?
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He replied! He did! 😀😆😆😆

See you on the next chapter, lovelies 😘