THE ADVENTURE OF AUGUST BACK TO EARTH

79. Goodbye Cayden

August's POV

Ilang araw na ba akong nagkukulong dito sa kuwarto? Hindi ako pumapasok sa klase. Genieva is sending me food dito sa room ko pero hindi kami nagkikita. I haven't seen them since I went back from my time travel. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin matanggap ang mga pangyayari.

But should I continue living like this? I can already notice that I am starting to destroy myself. Is Cayden will be happy after risking and sacrificing his life to save mine and I wasted it just like that? I can even no longer cry with tears. I am crying but there are no longer tears coming out.

The pain is still there and it's making me crazy. I don't even have the guts to go outside. I don't even have the guts to face everyone. How can I face them if I am the reason why Cayden is no longer around? I can't still stop myself from blaming. I was given a chance to change the future but I wasted it. I wasted it because of some selfish reason.

There are lots of messages and missed calls on my phone that I did not bother answering it or check it. I already lost count on how many times I attempted to kill myself but for unknown reason, I cannot do it. Something still is stopping me from killing myself.

I look like a mess. My eyes is red and puffy. I no longer comb my hair. I look hideous. Ganito ba talaga ang itsura ng mga brokenhearted at nagluluksa? I guess yes, because I am feeling the same thing.

I just wish that at least, the pain will be lessen because any moment, I am afraid that I will finally completely breakdown.

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Genieva's POV

I am silently tapping my fingers on the desk while sitting in my living room. I'm in my house right now where I lived before and August. I can no longer stay in the Academy because I am no longer a student there.

Day by day, my worries is getting worst. I understand why August is in her current state. I know she's blaming herself. But it's not her fault. She did not cause the death.

Misha is no longer around. She went back to earth and Lucas chased her. I am left here, alone and it's breaking me everytime I think of August and I cannot even do anything to her.

This is the same with Cayden before. When we thought August is dead. He was like this. But I did not expect I will be experiencing the same thing again. It's hard to see your friend in pain. You cannot even smile. It feels like you are broken too.

"My lady, she's still not coming out in her room, but she's eating the food we are providing her." Inporma sa kanya ng kanyang attendant. Pasalit-salit sila ng paghahatid ng pagkain kay August.

Nakahinga naman siya ng maluwag. "I am thankful still that she eats. Cayden was worst. He doesn't eat at all before." She commented and then pain strikes her heart when she remembered something. She let out a deep breath.

I hope anytime soon, she will be back to her old self. I miss her. I miss my friend. I miss her craziness.

"I'm gonna leave now my lady." Paalam naman nito sa akin at umalis na ito.

"Mama!" Napalingon na lang ako ng tinawag ako ng aking anak. She's 15 years old but in human world, she's only two. Time runs fast here in Pandora but we hardly age. We age in our appearance like the human world time and maybe more. We have longer life than them.

"Yes baby?" I asked her. She's a baby and now she's playing with Emerald. Augusta's daughter who's older than mine.

"Play! Play! Play!" She's shrieking in glee kaya napatayo na ako at lumapit sa dalawang bata. Nakikipaglaro ako sa anak ko kahit may kalaro ito. Sanay ito dahil lagi ko yung ginagawa sa kanya.