Fixed | Changjin

17

|Changbin|

I was at home, lying on my bed. It was late, and only Jisung and I where home. I was tired and was about to go to bed when I got a text.

xxx-xxx-6765:

Hey... Its Felix...

I froze. Felix? Lee fucking Felix was texting me. did he get a new number or something? Why was he texting me?

xxx-xxx-6765:

dont leave me on read changbin...

I was starting to panic. I was starting to have flash backs from our relationship. Our toxic relationship, that should have never happened. My breath got heavy.

xxx-xxx-6765:

me and chan broke up if that makes you feel better...

Me: why???

Chan??? Felix??? Why did they break up?

Xxx-xxx-6765:

you answered!

but things werent going well...

he also missed his ex so...

Me: why are you telling me this?

xxx-xxx-6765:

Cuz... I miss u binnie

I think in that moment I snapped. Tears rolling down my face. I couldn't handle this. I didn't want to feel this, this pain that Lee Felix made me feel. The pain I put on my skin. The pain my heart felt. The pain I feel when anyone says his name.

Lee Felix

Lee Felix

Lee

Felix

Jisung heard my loud sobs and ran into my room.

"Binnie?? Are you ok?" He asked, joining me on the floor.

I shook my head. Jisung asked me what was wrong. I handed him my phone to show him.

Jisung sat there in shock.

"Chan and Felix?? Wait why is he texting you? You guys broke up... You have a boyfriend-" I cut Jisung off because he was talking too much.

"I-I ke-keep thing o-of what ha-happened" My face was burning with tears.

"Did you tell hyunjin about your relationship with felix?" Jisung asked

"H-He kno-knows we d-dated, b-but he d-doesn't know how b-bad ev-everything was." I said

"You should tell h-"

"No. H-He shouldn't k-know e-ever."

"Why not?"

"Because, I d-don't want s-something to h-happen to us b-because of t-the p-past." I said, choking on my tears.

"It's ok to talk to him. He's still going to love you anyway. No matter what happens, he's always going to love you."

I rapped my arms my arms around Jisung. Jisung cuddled me closer.

"Binnie its ok. I promise you." Jisung says.

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Im sorry no update for a while. I lack motivation. This is part one of a dramatic/tea filled part of the book. A lot more tea with changbin, felix, and hyunjin will happen. i promise ill update within the next week. ive been so busy with lacrosse after school so i promise more fanfic soon. shout out to half_moon_uwu     for motivating me. <3