Eos- The Dawn

Chapter 1

Eos POV:

'Beautiful' whispered Lucas. I freeze, i smell him, he's close very close. I stand and turn.
'Eos this is beautiful' his words send shivers down my spine, i try to regain composure but my body wont co-operate. I am staring at him now. Lucas doesn't know the affect he has on me. My wolf stirs as she feels my heart swell with love. 'We have a mate, and thats not him' .

'Eos, if you keep staring at me like that i wont be responsible for what i do next' his words snapped me out of my thoughts, my eyes narrowed in on his face. He starts to chuckle. I want to hear his laugh forever. I want to engrave it into my heart, a memory which i can keep replaying. I love his laugh.
'Very funny Alpha' i say with a straight face. I stopped calling him by his first name a long time ago.

'What? You dont believe me?' He's staring at me now, i can feel his eyes on me, i shift under his gaze. He makes me nervous. He knows this.
'Look at me' i hesitate, but lift my head up, trying to show him that he has no effect on me, yet my knees are shaking, I'm struggling to stay standing.
'You're work is beautiful Eos, i would never lie'
For some reason i want him to say that I'm beautiful and not what i have created. I want to feel special. I want to feel loved. But I know it wont happen. Not with him anyway.

The wild in me bristles at the thought of us with someone else. 'Our mate will love us' i grimace at the thought. I dont think i can love someone else. Lucas is all i think about. My last thought when i go to sleep. My first thought when i wake up. I wonder does he think about me? Or does she occupy his thoughts now?

'Eos, what is it? Have i said something wrong?'

His gaze remains on me, concern and worry is etched across his face. It seems like he cares. But i know better.

'Alpha thank you'.
He sighs and takes a seat on the chair i was occupying not too long ago.

'Eos you can call me Lucas' he looks up at me now, peering into my eyes, i break the contact and move to put the paintbrush that i had in my hand down. I had been painting. A wolf.

'I dont think she would appreciate that' i mutter slowly.

'She doesn't need to know' i inwardly gulp at the way he says it, almost like he knew that i was going to say that.

'If thats the case then why cant we be together?' My heart clenches as i wait for his response. I know what he is going to say, yet i have hope he will say something different. He doesn't.

'We've been through this Eos, shes my mate, i have to fulfil my duty as Alpha and also as a mate to your future Luna'.

His words hit me as i realise it will never change. Its been months now. Im waiting. Waiting for nothing. He wont leave her. He will never be mine.

'I understand, i wont bring it up again, Alpha' I emphasise the word alpha and i see his jaw twitch.

'Eos i love you'

No. No you dont. Because if you did i wouldn't be feeling like this. We wouldn't be like this.

Tears well up in my eyes, i blink them back, not wanting to appear weak. I dont want him to know how this effects me. He reaches for my hand. I flinch and take a step back.
He seems hurt by my actions. But quickly replaces it with a blank look. He wants to say something, but he cant find the right words. He's searching my face to see if i will say something, anything. I wont. I cant.