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4| Something In The Rain- Part I

He shook his head. "Don't."

"But-" I looked at his fingers clutching my wrist firmly, on place.

"It's not her fault."

I raised eyebrow at him. "How the fuck it's not her-"

"It's my fault."

"Heath." I whispered, my heart burning in my chest. "Please don't say it like that."

He shook his head again. "Yes, Hazel, it's my fault. I didn't love her enough to stay with me for her whole life."

"How is that-" I took a deep breath to calm my nerves and looked at him. "You've gona mad, Heath. It's not your fault she's with someone else. She didn't love you enough from the start. She didn't even love you to begin all this. You were the only one courting her. She didn't even care enough-"

"That's not true! She did care and we had our good times together! Didn't you see we were so happy in love? She was happy with me." He pointed at himself. "Me! By my side! We were so happy with each other! We-"

"No! Only you were happy with her." I pointed at him. "Only you. She wasn't. And everyone saw that! It was no wonder Mrs. Evercrest didn't want you to marry her 'cause she could see your marriage falling apart already if you ever married her-"

He grabbed my shoulders harshly, his long fingers digging into my flesh."But I was gonna marry her anyway! I love her, I don't care if anybody wants me with her or not! I don't need to care-"

"That's because you're stupid for thinking something like that was gonna get you to be with her! You became blind with greed! Do you even have any idea how you've been treating your family lately because of your one-sided obsession with Kiara!? Do you even know how much Mrs Evercrest is in stress because of you being a stubborn jerk for nothing!?"

"What?" He spoke low, glaring at me. His grip on my shoulders tightened and I closed my eyes in pain. "I'm a jerk?"

I opened my eyes, looking at him in contempt. My breathing became ragged. "Yes." I pressed my lips in thin line. "You're a jerk. A stubborn pathetic jerk who became selfish the moment he fell in love."

"You're crossing your limits here, Scarlett."

"Let me, will you?" He narrowed his eyes at me. "I've been wanting to say so much to you. Let me get it out for once. Because I don't think I can hold it in anymore."

He just glared at me. "You think I've become selfish? Just because I fell in love?"

"Yes you did and you still are behaving as one." I pointed at his iron-like grip on me.

"Everyone becomes selfish in love-"

"Not everyone, Heath! Just you! Just the types of you! People sacrifice their lives for the ones they love but you'd rather take a life than sacrifice one!" I stared right into his eyes. "This is not love. It never was. You made it like that. You made people around you like that. You made them so miserable that they wanted to run away from you-"

"You think I made Kiara run away from me!? You think I wanted her to leave me!? You think she did it because I was forcing her to stay with me!?" With each word, his hands pressed around my arms tighter but I refused to wince in pain, meeting him eye to eye.

"More like pursuing her. I told you she wasn't the type to stay with one person but you didn't care to pay heed to my words. You think I bark nonsense-"

"That you do! Besides, what's the proof of your words? For what seems like a misunderstanding on your part, you sure did a good job in trying to convince me with it. But ou never know until you confirm it with your own eyes! What-"