Emotion Speaks: Illusions and Aches

I Am Tired

I am tired.
I'm sorry my love but I'm tired.
I've come to this point from the past but somehow, I'm tired.
I could have not given up for the years that have passed but I'm tired.
I'm tired of fighting for you.
I'm tired of loving you.
I'm tired of looking at you.
I'm tired of talking to you.
I'm tired of hopelessly hoping that we could be even better.
That we could be more than what we are now.
That we could be the best than others out there.
But...
I'm tired.
I'm too tired.
The ship may be sailing but the docks are closed.
The plane is flying but the airports are closed.
The vehicles are running but the terminals are closed.
We could be the best than the others
But my heart's now
All
Closed.
I'm sorry for being persistent.
I'm sorry for being not able to put myself in your shoes.
I'm sorry for being bent.
I'm sorry for liking you.
I'm sorry for being gay.
I'm sorry for being born.
I'm sorry for being...me.
And those things
Have made me
So tired up until now.
The slaps of realization.
The bass drops of facts.
And the absence of an imaginative mind.
That's why I've made my mind.
To stop burning brighter for you.
To stop making you as my inspiration.
To stop making myself feel just the right one for you.
Destiny just led us
Like we're just the journey
With different people to end with at the finish line.
I am tired.
I am tired.
I love you.
But I am tired.
Of my insecurities.
Of my imperfections.
Of my sexuality.
That's why I am sorry.
And one more thing.
I should stop chasing on someone who's also chasing on someone.
I am the deviant individual so I had to adjust.
I'm sorry.
I'm tired.
I
Am
Tired.

[R&I]