UN-DRUNK ❨ SEAVEY! ❩

( ix. ) the apology

daniel seavey

i meant what i said.

i know we haven't talked
in a long time, but i miss
you so much. i regret
what i did every day. it
was stupid and so fucked
up. you were the love of my
life. you ARE the love of my
life. i understand if you don't
forgive me, but i had to tell
you.

daniel i still love you. and i
miss you every day. you
changed my life. i don't
know how i've lived on
without you.

i'm so sorry

what part of it are you sorry
for?

all of it. every single
bit. i'm sorry for growing
distant, i'm sorry for lying
by telling you i didn't
want you around anymore.
i'm sorry for saying i didn't
care if i hurt your feelings.

none of it is true. i needed
you around, and i cared so much
about your feelings. another
thing is, i never cheated on you.

i would never. i just wanted
you to think i did so you
would hate me. i was in such
a bad place after my mom
passed, i thought i didn't
deserve anybody around.

i needed you and i pushed
you away. that's completely
my fault. i'm so sorry for leaving
you daniel.

you never cheated?

no. i would never.

alice, i don't know what
to say...

i miss you every day too.

but i still don't know if
i'm ready to be broken
again.
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