happy or not?

Attention! To All Readers

what is darkside?

darkside starts d and ends with e
yet, it depends on whatever references you read
or whatever you believe
but for me, that is the attitude you don't show
and unsaid feelings wherever you go

everybody has a darkside
so, I don't expect your judgments of my mind
and my heart insights
all I want is to let this burden out with all might

sometimes, me and loneliness is on live fight
I don't want pity nor your concerns
all I want is this burden to burn
from my deep hidden dark light

I'm not depress
even it looks like that, but I rather not
it will be just a mess
of this life full of no awesomeness
it is just me
me, alone and me

please note my sarcasm
I am very happy of living in this messy realm
full of upside down
cruelty cannot be bug down
even if it's the righteousness
it will just end in upgrading stupidness

I am me
and so it be
no one should compare you and me
cause the feelings inside I bear
no one even dare to see
and I can't just instantly share
to the people whom I care

I like writing
better than talking
sometimes, talking ends with endless arguments
while writing can settle huge shipment

like wars, were just a cause of misjudgment
while peace treaties are written and signed in easements
most likely people slip some forbidden language
causing the world to its chaotic mortgage

I am a just teen
I don't fully understand my feelings
every second and situation, it's always changing
a moody person, whatever you feel to think and leans

my darkside and yours
are different in pores
to each others source
of feelings it store

so, I hope no one dares
to tenaciously misjudge
all I hope and cares
is no one will carry some grudge

that's why I just write this rage
instead of vocally and dares
for this world full of judge
and especially to you world, "what the fudge!"

so beware and aware
to all readers out there
for i don't care
of whatever you think and bear

some may you might not understand
for it is my language,
came from my native land
ready to vanquish,
of what's in my mind

plagiarism
I hate that meaning
cause that act can cause weeping
to the original origin,
without crediting

I hope nobody will copy
of this work, it's not easy
to rhyme the words
and the feeling to purge

just train of thoughts of mine
and turn to words that rhymes
ready to confine
to the feelings I badly want to define

04.04.19