Dear Diary | Vkook

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2nd Dec

Dear Diary,

Hi future me? I don't know? Will I actually use this diary? Probably, Its apparently my only friend, and its not even a human being? Explains my life story really. Bout how I'm lonely. Its Only my Mom, Brother and I. My dad killed himself because of the selfish ass he is. Thinking about himself all the time. Not caring how torn apart our family was after he died. Not caring about the financial problems we had. Not caring about his wife. Not caring about his 2 sons. He never loved me, after I came out as gay.

I guess I'm going to write in this diary / book thing. Mainly my feelings. If I'm happy, sad, lost, depressed.

NO! We shall talk about Kim Taehyung. I've had a crush on him for the longest time ever. Since I was 10, now I'm 17. Yikes that's reallyyyyy cringey. I haven't really told anyone, apart from my mom. Even she knows I won't get a chance haha. It doesn't matter, I don't have hope anyways. Never will to be completely honest. (╯3╰) .

Anyways. I'm really lonely in school. My only 2 friends are Yoongi and Seokjin, We call Seokjin, Jin for short. They're friends with 4 others, Taehyung, Jimin, Namjoon and Hoseok. I should be happy that my friends are friends with Taehyung, right? But Idk. I don't really hang with them.. Once I tried but I could barely speak. Or move, I was so nervous being with the other 6 boys. ESPECIALLY Taehyung. That day was traumatizing. I started drooling onto Taehyung. Ever since I feel like Taehyung hates me to be honest. I would say he's been avoiding me... but its the opposite away around. I can't face him after that day. I was so embarrassed. I started to cry in front of him as well.

Ew I hate the memory. Anyways I'm going to get sleep. Goodnight Diary. Goodnight Taehyung, And Taehyung only, I love you! (And my Mom and brother) <3