Bad Timing ~ A Daniel Seavey Fanfiction

Chapter 26

Bellas POV

Daniel made me and him hot chocolate in silence while I sat on the bed still shaking, the images from the nightmare kept reappearing in my mind.

It was beginning to get dark outside and everything seemed rather gloomy, even Daniel didnt have his normal award winning smile on his face. This place, this town that was meant to be home felt so foreign to me, even after living here for seventeen years I felt so lost. 

It felt weird sitting here in silence, the mood had changed dramatically in the past eight hours. I wanted to hug Daniel, touch him, but I still was so closed off about everything with Conner and the guilt that I held over myself for that ripped me apart. But I knew it hurt Daniel too, more then I could ever know. Because sitting here... watching him slowly plod round the motel, he looked so heartbroken and worried for me. I was the constant cause of his problems, but I also brought him some form of happiness. 

Daniel came over towards me and the bed dipped as he sat down beside me, handing me my hot chocolate with a faint smile. No words were said for a few seconds as we stared at the blankness around us , the mood almost felt tense

"Have you had them before?"- Daniels whispered

What?

"The nightmares"- He now turned to face me , concern washed over his face. He seemed breathless, but so was I , I knew that I would have to open up fully, but I didnt feel ready because I hadnt come to terms with what happened with Conner myself

I sighed

"Yes"- My answer was short, I was blocking myself off. 

"How often?"- He asked again and I had a strong urge just to break down, to be vulnerable, to sob into his short while he would hold me close and tell me everything was going to be okay

"I-I dont know. Maybe three, or four times a week"- I heard Daniel gasp silently but I continued. "But they stopped... when I was with you"

"Then why now, what was the cause of it tonight?" - I could tell he wanted answers and I knew he was being pushy because he was so worried about me but I could feel myself closing up, not wanting him to know anymore

I stayed silent

"It was because of him wasnt it, the guy you saw today"- He whispered with a slight edge. "Bella, who was he?"

I could feel my chest tightening, the urge to just run and not have to confront anything about Conner to Daniel. I wanted to curl up in a ball and Daniel not asking questions but I was new at this. Relationships are all about openness but I still was too scared to even let Daniel in

Sure, I had been honest with Daniel before. About my home life, my parents, my friends. But nearly getting raped was something I didnt even want to admit had happened, I was ashamed I had put myself in the position where that was even an option in the first place

"I dont want to talk about it"- I mustered out, suddenly finding the laces on my shoes very interesting to look at 

This time Daniel stood up, pacing round the room and tugging at his hair. I could tell he was angry or frustrated, I wanted to go back to how we were this morning... carefree

I could see Daniel try to compose himself and he turned towards me

"Bella, I love you. I love you so so much. Although I respect your boundries , I care for you more then I could ever imagine and this is something I cant just let go of. Knowing your having nightmares over... h-him. It destroys me, it tears me apart. I cant just go on knowing that SOMETHING happened between the two of you that has made you THIS scared, THIS terrified. A-and when you looked at me, for a moment, a split second, you were even scared of me"- He looked down, and guilt rushed over my body