this lie of a life is making me go insane
you push me into hate and drive me into pain
you think i'm depressed and honestly crazy
you ask me if i'm all right, but the answer's hazy
though you think you can understand
it's just a display of ignorance, characterized by man
in your arms, you let me sob and cry
soon after, my low point becomes high
all i want from you is to be proud of me
but i'm incapable if this is the way it's going to be
i know i'm never going to be through with the tears i shed
the fury is unbearable, like nails pounding into my head
i can't continue being terrified of myself like this
if i were you, i'd go ahead and raise my fist
i'd beat myself dead and not care one bit
i'd wrap me up in cloth and throw myself in a pit
but it's impossible, so i'll teach myself how to cope
but for right now, i need to find hope
