(Revised) Russian Roulette: The Secrecy of a Mistress

From the Beginning

Unbeknownst to Ty there's a million and two thoughts running through my head. I know that what we're doing is wrong Ty left his wife at home rocking their two-month-old baby. Ty even had the nerve to tell Shy' Anna that he has work-related business to handle down on South Beach, truthfully satisfying me is the only work-related business he's handling. To make matters worse he would check in on occasion making the lie even easier for his wife to believe. I feel bad for being the reason why Ty is so confused.

The business Ty always handles consists of him constantly swiping his card he showers me with Bath and Body Works, Victoria's Secret, and he makes sure to grab a designer handbag from Macy's. TyShawn always tells me that Shy isn't satisfying him but his heart won't let him leave  he instead built up enough nerve to cheat. I don't understand why can't he just leave Shy to be with me? Realistically, how could I  ask him to choose when I'm hesitant about leaving Adrian?

 The battle of indecisiveness is all a part of the game we're playing on this emotional roller-coaster. Finally, Ty turned the shower off when he walked out of the bathroom his six-pack was shining and the hotel towel he has around his waist is barely there. Not to mention, I'm lying here in some black crotchless panties and a matching bra. Typically, it would be extremely hard for us not to attack each other. But surprisingly, I'm a bit resistant Ty was a bit thrown off because hesitation from me is unusual.

"What's wrong babe? You good?" Ty inquired while gazing into sweetly into my eyes.

"Yeah, I just have a lot weighing heavily on my mind you know how that is," I replied

"Don't hold back talk to me?" Ty responded with concern in his voice.

"Ty my guilt is eating away at me things have to change soon is all I'm telling you!" I replied with my arms folded.

Ty answered with his head in his hands."I've gotten myself in a tough position for real I still have love for Shy and on the other hand, I love the hell out of you too because you always make time for me,"

"Shy can't make time for me right now she's always working long hours or  tired due to Ta'Shyla keeping her up all night," Ty added letting out a huge sigh.

"Okay, Ty listen! Adrian and I are supposed to get married in December and it's July, I totally understand that loving two women isn't easy, but our situation has been going on for a year and still no change," I declared with major agitation.

"So, you want me to choose and your situation isn't any better than mine, you're causing me stress when you're engaged? Sunni you need to chill and sort your own shit out," Ty responded sounding pissed.

"He has just pissed me off!" I thought to myself.

Honestly Ty is right without saying another word I grabbed my phone and began quickly scrolling through Facebook and Instagram. The room is awkwardly silent after a few minutes Ty breaks the tension.

" Bae, let's not allow the stress of what we're dealing with mess up our weekend" Ty calmly pleaded.

                                                                      (An awkward silence)

"Sunni, are you really gonna ignore me like that?" Ty asked sounding more pissed.

"I don't give a damn about his feelings!" I snickered nonchalantly to myself.

"Look, try wearing my shoes I'm months away from having a wedding that part of me wants to cancel and part of me is hesitant," I replied with frustration while lying my phone down on the night stand.

"Really? So, you love Adrian more than your ass has been telling me huh? You're not trying to leave him, are you?" Ty asked with hurt in his voice.

"I'm not going to leave Adrian when I'm certain that you're in love with Shy I want you and me to become more than secret lovers, but I refuse to leave Adrian and you seem just as complacent as I am that shit doesn't make sense you know it Ty!" I replied with the ugliest mean mug.