Into the "Unknown"...

chapter 2: "now i cant even turn back"

Its the day of my departure. I think over and over again and despite the hard reality, it somehow seems comical like one of those fictional stories where a character hits a particular age and has to make a choice. I frown at the thought as I turn around in bed, but I don't have a choice that's the difference. How could I possibly be even trying to relate my life to a story; my life is not a false tale made for the pleasure of others its the reality of my life and there's no where to turn away from it all. I take a look at my clock and see its only 7.30. I have always been an early riser but more so after my father died. Why would anyone want to even close their eyes if all that comes to them is a long wave of grief, hurt, anger and fear waiting to drown their dreams. I slip out of bed and get ready to take a shower.

When I come back into the room I find jays not there he must be up already, probably downstairs eating. I promised him I'll spend the day with him but he hasn't told me what exactly he wants to do yet. I get changed and quietly make my way downstairs careful not to wake my mother. If she's even asleep. When I walk into the kitchen I find jay preparing what looks like a picnic. I laugh as I watch him struggle with spreading the butter gently. He turns around looking slightly fustrated but grins at me. "hey Aria I was kinda hoping to do all this by my self but..." 

I cut him short smiling "but it seems that without my incredible help we'll be stuck here for the rest of the day" I say. Jay just nods then says "exactly"

We spend about half an hour finishing of making a few extra if everything. We talk about all the good times we shared when we were little and laugh at te embarrassing times. When we're finally done I hold back the tears and I can see he's doing the same so to ease the mood a little I challenge him. 

"bet you can't race me all the way to the moody hill" jay smiles, the moody hill is the only place where jay or Liam my best friend would know to find me when I was annoyed or upset and just wanted to be alone. Though that rarely seemed to happen because if them two and eventually it just be and a nice place where all of us would just escaped to. "Get set...Go!" jay yells running for the opening of the forest just across the road.  

"Hey I wasn't ready" I call out, knowing jay was too compettetive to risk looking back. I start running at an incredible speed, my legs taking control as I run past the trees, eventually coming ahead of jay.  

I suddenly bump hard into someone. "sorry" I say then look up to see a boy with blonde hair and deep blue eyes grinning at me. "Liam" i say as i pull him into a hug.  

"Aria you only saw me yesterday!" I laugh  

"yeah but you know todays the day" I say in a mocking upbeat tone,Liam and i have already discussed how we might not even see each other once we go to the "place." Jay comes to a stop next to me catching his breath. "hey Liam" jay greets then turns to me. "aria we left the food" he points out. "I'm going too go get it yeah?" he says. 

"want me to come with?" i ask. He shakes his head no, and i feel slightly hurt but then annoyed at myself for being selfish, he probably wants some time alone.

Liam and i walk to the top of the moody hill and we sit at the top like when we were kids. We have both been friends since we were five. For some reason i never got along with many of the girls in my class mainly because all of the ones in my class used to cry to get their way and always moan. I was an out spoken girl so it didn't work out well when i used to talk back to the girls for being so annoying. However with Liam although he was a boy we understood each other completely and over the years our friendship has grown, we know each other inside out. we both ended up going to forlingrons secondary school which was one of the only three secondary schools on our side of London the other two were st marys a girls only school and John caspers boys school. For some reason the outsiders, people who aren't us think whatever we have inside us is like a contagious disease but I just see it as an other inner part with in us waiting to expose itself. I know loads of kids who fantasise about the change some thought crazy things like vampires and werewolves but I think I heard most if that from girls obsessed with twilight and loved to be sucked into all those fantasies. Its a good book as is the film but why go all crazy waiting for an Edward like vampire to sweep you of your feet when in reality that would be impossible.