This story revolves around mental illness and the real world problems that have not been given as much importance as it should be.
The lives of two teenagers are in the hands of their own mercy. Forced to take the steering wheel on a lifestyle that...
I fell back. The oxygen escaped my lungs as I gasped for life. Everything became a blur of colors , each morphing into monsters. Laughing. Ridiculing me. "Did he just ... choke ?" More laughter. I felt my veins pulsing as I gathered my papers off the floor and made a dash for the door. I marched out the front gate and ran as fast as I could homewards. It felt as if the whole world wanted me dead. The universe was against me. Nothing I do will ever be good enough. These thoughts often pop up on bad days but the best thing to do is push them aside. I was a normal kid. I was a straight B student. I enjoyed music and sports just like anybody else. I walk and breathe the same way everyone does. But why ... did I feel like an outcast ...? Maybe because of this ... this ...DISEASE !!! I'm Junpei Tsutsumi and if you're wondering why my morning was off to such a strange start ... I have .... social anxiety disorder. It sounds unimportant. Some people may even call it "being shy". No. As someone who has to go through it , I can assure you it isn't as simple. "Whatever. I'll get through it " I thought as I reached for my laptop. . [ minutes later ] "JUNPEI KUN ARE YOU HOME ?!?" I jumped from my seat. "I'm in my room Itsuki " My elder brother. Childish as he is wise. He never leaves me alone (laughs to self) but maybe that's a good thing. It's nice to have someone around after these sort of attacks. Helps me get my mind out of the pit of worries and problems no one else seems to be facing. "Junpei kun ... HOW WAS SCHOOL ??" He asks with the most stupid of grins .
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" Just great. " I sighed and turned away. "Jun... I heard you collapsed in class today " Itsuki's expression turned more serious and sullen as he looked at me with worry in his eyes. "It was nothing San ! Just stage fright. The usual ..." "Are you taking your meds ?" "Yes " I hadn't. I didn't believe in medication. It wouldn't change by unspoken fate. I couldn't tell my brother about my ... condition. It was quite embarrassing and an albatross of worry for anyone who found out and would have to care for me. What if I was to be such a burden that finally ... I'd be left with only the thoughts of suicide , feelings of lorn and the longing to be as perfect as someone who was gifted with the power to fit in. Is this how it feels to be the thorn on a rose ? The cloud to a silver lining ? Am I undeserving of love and appreciation all because I lose my nerve every time I'm in public ? Nevertheless , this was a secret that id take to my grave....Or would it ? The trials had just begun.
