I wish I could feel good in my own skin. That I could feel as beautiful as people say. I wish I didn't think that they were lying all the time. I put a filter on when taking photos and put make up on to feel good. I get compliments and still feel ugly. But then I feel guilty and selfish for feeling the way I do.
I try to shut off my brain and stop overthinking so all these emotions would stop flooding me, but it's a struggle.
It feels like I'm always trying to perfect myself. Constantly comparing myself to others because I don't feel good in my own skin. And then feel guilty for being self centered. I hold it all in because I don't want to be a burden, so I write. I don't know what to do or how to feel. I'm always in a battle with myself.
Maybe if I worked on the things I want to fix about myself, I'd feel better. All I need is motivation and better repetition. Maybe then I'd stop fighting and complaining. Maybe then I'd start to feel good in my own skin . .
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Notes in a Notepad
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