"What ?" she asks curiously searching for any emotion in my eyes but I stare at her blankly.
"Was it easy when you left me hanging?"
Her face holds confusion while her eyes say a different thing " I don't understand your question"
"Why are you doing this? How could you even consider this as an option" I say waving the file in the air " I will never give my baby up for adoption no matter how convincing you become" I say firmly.
I fling the file across the room in resentment " Shiloh I know what you are feeling right now but all this is for your good..." She says softly trying to take my hands in hers but I pull my hand away.
I glare at her cutting her short" no you don't understand anything, not when you left me alone when I needed you and now here you are telling me to give my baby away" I say through gritted teeth.
She looked at me dejected" please Shiloh just listen to me" she says pleading.
I would like to listen to what she has to say but I am done listening for once, she needs to listen " Come to think of it " I say thoughtfully " you are all scared because this may get to the public so you only trying to get rid of my baby because of your family selfish reasons " I say spitefully my glare still in place.
The words coming from my mouth felt so foreign, I would never sound like this no matter how angry I get but maybe it happens when you are being pushed off your limits.
I felt a sting on my cheek snapping me out of my thought making tears roll down from my cheeks.
I hiss from the impact blinking to clear the cloud of tears blocking my eyes trying to focus on my surroundings.
Finally focusing on my surrounding I find Sylvia staring at her hands like it was the most bizarre thing ever, looking stunned.
I place my hand on my cheek feeling the red imprint of her hand on my cheek.
Sylvia would never raise her hand on me but I guess things changed" Shiloh I am so sorry.." I put my hand between us stopping her apology.
I wipe away the tears "it's okay" I say calmly feeling weary suddenly.
"Mum and dad care about you but things are so complicated and there are things we can't tell you right now," she says furtively.
I shake my head in a no motion " I won't beg for your time and attention anymore. The more you ignore me, the more I will get used to being ignored. "I say meeting her sad gaze on me " if you stop calling me, I will stop waiting for your calls. If you stop sending me text messages, I will get rid of my habit of checking my phone all day" she tries cutting me off but I refuse to let her speak because I just need to get all this desperation off my chest.
But why does it feel like I am breaking my own heart?.
"The more you stay away from me, the more I will adapt to staying away from you," I say not only directing these words to her but to everyone who hurt me.
She runs her hand over her face looking sad and helpless, Sylvia I know always looks collected with a bright smile on her face but right now she looks nothing like that.
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VERDICT OF LOVE
Romance"I am pregnant, " I say looking into his eyes intensely but his face is emotionless. "what? " he asks stunned, he paces around for a few minutes "I can't take care of a child right now" he snaps holding the office table tightly. "We have to becaus...
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