Dirty Little Secrete

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I've been to the hospital a couple times but they all was false alarms .

This pain was different and I started panicking when water rushed down my legs .

Ron - mama !
She came in confused and looked at the water on the floor

Neely - baby time ! She boasted and helped me to the car .

I was so fucking scared and I didn't want anyone touching me .

I sat in the hospital bed shaking my leg as reality hit me .

I'm finna be a mommy

My granny sat holding my hand

Me - Ron baby I was sweating as I turned my head to the side to look at his face

Me - I wanna be alone , I'm sorry I said as contractions hit me .

I was so uncomfortable

He kissed my hand and left the room .

I shot Dave a text . I wanted to see if he was gonna be here for me like he said .

Lately I been feeling like he wasn't

The doctor came in and checked on me

I was feeling something in my heart so I told him everything I needed him to know in case something happened to me .

|| Dave ||

K - I'm at the hospital rm 223 , son son coming .
I looked at the message on my phone again as I got up

Brianna - you leaving me ?

Me - yea , I'll see you later I kissed her cheek and quickly left .

I walked into the room to see kharisma holding hands with an older lady .

Her eyes was shut tightly .

Me - you got this mamas I whispered in her ears making her eyes shoot open

She shot me a smile as I rubbed her cheek

? - who is this ?

Kharisma - Dave , Dave this my granny

Me - nice to meet you I said politely as a doctor came in

I watched him look under her gown before smiling

Weird ass

Doctor - it's baby time !
Her granny let go of her hands and kissed her cheek

Granny - imma wait with the kids , they prob acting a fool in that waiting room

Kharisma laughed and she walked off

Doc - your staying ? I nodded and they made me put some stuff on

I bent down to her and cupped her face

Me - you got this tears ran down her face as she nodded

I kissed her lips as they told her to push

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I watched the nurses mood shift as blood gushed from Kharisma

She was loosing a lot of blood as she pushed

They instantly hooked her up to a breathing machine and her heart monitor increased

She looked at me with worry in her eyes as she gripped onto my hand

Me - is everything ok ? they wasn't saying shit , just moving fast .

Doc - she's loosing to much blood . We don't know if she's gonna make it

Them words hurt my heart .

|| kharisma ||

My heart was beating fast . I was so scared and light headed .

I was grateful I told that man everything I wanted to happen with my baby .

They kept trying to keep me alert as I pushed

Me - D-Dave

Dave - yes mama ?

Me - take care of my baby ok ?

His eyes turned red as he looked at me

Me - promise me you got him if I die ?

My vision was blurry as I seen a tear drop from his face

Dave - you got this Kharisma . Don't talk like that , I love you .

Me - I love you too was the last thing I admitted before my eyes shut and I felt like my heart stopped .

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- How yall feeling ??