Arranged Marriage

Epilogue Pt 1

"Oh my GOD doctor...."

"Bbeom hyung.. i'll be fine. Save ou--"

"Doctor. You said to eat things right? What about i buy him those things for him to eat, then in 2 hours do the C-Section?"

"Mmm... you know what...patients must be fasted before anesthesia gived. Also HB can't just raise up easily like that...  sorry we don't have time. What's your choice?" Doctor asked

"Bbeom hyung... i ate everything. But it's not my fault if i nausea and vommited after eata. I have a bad morning sickness... i don't feel good to left the bed and i don't think i need doctor that time i'm sorry... now please. Let's save our baby. Let's both of us sign the paper"

"Wait.. doctor. Excuse me. So you are trying to say i can save my son but my wife couldn't make it or..... we need to wait for my wife to fulfill his Hb then we'll do he C-section to take out my son from my wife but at that time, my son couldn't make it. So basically, i have 2 choices. Save my wife or save my son, right?"

"Yes. I give you time to talk about it with your wife. 1 hour is that enough?"

"It's more than enough doctor. Thank you"

"Your welcome. I'm very sorry it must be hard but i promise i'll try my best to save whoever you choose to save" with that the doctor leave

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"Bbeom hyung. Hey listen to me.. i'm fine okay? I won't left you. I'll just laying in the hospital for idk how long"

"Did you heard what he said? A PREGNANT WOMAN MIGHT BE IN COMA IF SHE HAS C-SECTION WITH 8,0! MEANWHILE YOURS IS ONLY 6,9 THAT'S TOO LOW!! YOU ARE ACUTE ANEMIA"

"So what? I'm not a pregnant woman. I'm a pregnant man. I won't die just because of C-Section. Maybe i'll just coma(?) Idk!! It's worth it to try!!"

"ARE YOU CRAZY?! YA!!! I just meet you Youngjae-ah. We never spend a good life together as a husband and a wife before this.... Please. You are my first priority. Our son will understand... please i need you to be here"

"No.... please bbeom hyung. Save our son. Okay? You--"

"LISTEN!! Months ago, do you remember what crazy me said? 'What's life without Youngjae?' Then i tried to kill myself? So.. what's life without you? What if i lost you? You think i'll love our son like the way i love you? How can i see my son? I must hate him bcs of him my wife died but i must love him bcs he's a part of us. A part of you"

"That's why we have to save him!! He's the part of us!!"

"Youngjae jelly bean.... What's the point to gave birth but you'll never see his face or hear his voice or even hold his tiny hands? We've never lived happily before Youngjae-ah.... NEVER. We just started our new life as a husband and wife who love each other. Please... listen to me... what if our son asking where's mom? What should i tell him? 'he died bcs of gave a birth to you'? What will he think to see his dad always sad and he knows the reason why his mom died?"

Youngjae just sighed

"What about his future? Raising a good son isn't easy Youngjae ah. Especially if i raise him alone. I need you. What if.. what if our son keep reminds me of you... so i can't hate him but i can't love him too... If you really want a son, we can adopt one.... Also... what if... WHAT IF OUR SON COULDN'T MAKE IT TO SURVIVE? Then he left me alone before he reach a year old. I'll be all alone. Without my wife and without my son. Please think about me Youngjae. Please... you have to think about me too..."

"You know what Jb-ssi?! You are never change. You are selfish... YOU ARE SO SELFISH!! YOU ASKED ME TO THINK ABOUT YOU BY DRAGGING OUR SON'S FUTURE BUT ALL THIS TIME YOU NEVER THINK ABOUT ME!! YOU MADE ME SUFFER SINCE WE MARRIED. AND WHEN I THOUGHT I'LL BE HAPPY SINCE YOU FELL WITH ME, GUESS WHAT!? I'M WRONG!!! ICAN'T BE HAPPY! HOW CAN I BE HAPPY IF YOU ARE STILL THE SAME!!! YOU NEVER THINK ABOUT ME!!! YOU SAID THAT YOU LOVE ME? hmph...fuck it"