Song for this Chapter: Step - Vampire Weekend
I must admit that I'm a little surprised by how openly I am talking to him, even though he doesn't speak a lot. Something about his presence makes it easy to talk to him. It must be his calm attitude.
We sit in complete silence for a few minutes and the rhythm of his breathing combined with the low music of the party slowly makes me fall into a relaxed trance until I hear his voice again.
"Have you ever wondered what life would be like if everyone would be honest with each other?"
His sudden question takes me by surprise and I have to think about it for some time before answering. What a random thing to ask someone.
"Well. In order to say what's on my mind, I would have to get free of any fear of being judged. Maybe I would seem like a completely different person to others. It would help in some ways but then again...some truths are better left untold."
I have to catch my breath from the unexpected speech I just gave him.
For some reason, the words sounded more emotional when I said them out loud.He nods, looking into the distance. Maybe he didn't like my answer.
I wonder what made him ask that, but I don't want to interrupt the intoxicating silence with my endless questions.Instead, I use the moment of his inattentiveness to really look at him from up close for the first time.
I can examine his face from where I sit.
There is a little pale scar below his ear, right next to his jawline. His high cheekbones are slightly pink from the cool night air. A few hair strands fall onto his forehead and he pushes them back again. He really has big hands. What was it that people say about big hands again? I don't remember."You're not like those people" I blurt out and point to the frat house behind us.
"Aren't you friends with them?" I add, remembering how he teased me about this before.
Kees gives me a short muffled answer by saying "No I'm not."
"What are you doing here then?" I ask again.
He seems to have a sense of humor but still, there is something guarded about him.
I can't quite put my finger on it."Nothing, I just didn't feel like being alone."
"But you were sitting outside by yourself-"
"But you're here now so I'm not alone", he interrupts me as if it's the most ordinary thing to say to a stranger. But his smile makes up for the lack of explenation.
I examine his face again and say the only thing that comes to my mind.
"You are so odd."
"Thanks a lot."
The way he scrunches his nose makes him look like a little kid.
I have to bite back a smile. "My pleasure,"When I check the time on my phone I remember that I have to be up early tomorrow.
I don't want to leave yet but I'm starting to feel worried about being late for orientation in the morning if I stay up too late."Anyway, I should really check on my friend. I haven't seen her in a while and she has a tendency to do weird things when she's drunk."
I can see a hint of disappointment in his eyes but he doesn't say anything else and just nods.
I kind of regret my decision but can't undo it because I'm already standing and decide to follow through with my plan.
When I enter the house, I directly make my way into the crowded living room and walk around for a while but can't find her.
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The Spring of Autumn
Romance"Anyway..what are you doing here?" I ask him the question that's been lurking in the back of my mind. "Not much, just talking to a weird girl at a shitty party." I have to bite back a smile but I also feel a little offended at the same time. I'm not...