Dear Future Me

Be patient

Dear future me,

Recently, I have been passing days, instead of living them...

Recently, I have been feeling really down...

Recently, deep black thoughts have been haunting my mind...

Recently, I have been trying to convince myself that I am okay...

That I'm still alive...

That i'm fine...

That I have never stayed away from people to hide my red eyes, my racing heart, my irrational thoughts...

But then I look at the mirror and find out that I'm living in a big fat lie.

I'm a mistake!

I'm fake!

Everyone is fake!

And I discovered that in the hard way...

The closest people to you, are most likely to cause you pain.

That's what everyone always says.

But I thought that was just an illusion.

But it turns out...

They were right.

And I was wrong.

But I know that letting go will create a space for better things to happen.

But why those who I trusted the most have decided to leave...

I wasn't ready...

I will never be ready...

But I can do nothing...

I'm happy for them...

But sad for myself...

Yet, I will try to find strength in my pain.

I just want to ask myself one single question:

Why?

Why emotional pain is way harder than physical pain?

Why?

Just tell me why?

So dear future me,

You need to be patient.

Because good things come to those who wait.

Don't let anything brings you down.

We were born to shine.

We were born to make a change.

Life can be hard.

But we'll survive.

I can feel it.

I hope you can feel it too...