my Introvert boss

you love me? (past)

While walking around the hall I felt something very heavy in my chest I want it out but I can't...

You're so cruel Jiyong! you jerk!! After giving me this kind of emotions your gonna tell me you wish you never met me?!!

While I'm talking to my self I didn't notice the wall I'm going to hit... And when you thought a prince will save you from a tragedy
That's when reality hit me hard!

My head is pounding in pain but it's nothing compared to the pain in my heart .I couldn't resist it anymore I lean on the wall while sitting and start crying like a baby.... Is this what heart break means I don't want love then!! You jerk!!!

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it's been weeks since I came back to my old classroom of course students bullied me every single day, reminding on how nothing I am and Jiyong just had his fun with me I kinda get that already I  can't say I've moved on already but it's getting better everyday.

I was walking home when I saw someone familiar......hyorin

she was walking closer to me
should I say hi? she's taeyang' girlfriend, but she's been nice to me

while thinking what to do
she already said hi to me

"hey sandy"

"hyorin hi.. you look stunning"

she's like a walking magazine

"Thanks.  I can't say the same for you" she looked at me very very concerned.

well who wouldn't when a whole class made an effort crushing a bunch of chalk and sprinkled it on me like I'm a bread

"well this can be a trend." trying to make my self feel better

"I know what happened confused you and hurt you...but believe when I say its better this way"

"I know but I wish he would at least explain it to me..."

hyorin hugged me

"My heart is breaking seeing pure souls being separated"

I got confused

"what?"

"If it makes you feel any good... jiyong is killing himself slowly with alcohol right now he's more broken than you think sandy"

before I get to ask another question a car pulled over and hyorin gets in immediately

wait what do you mean?!

"oh sandy...I gave clues and its up to you if you want to do something about it"

"about what?!"

"Bye see you" she winked

he's more broken than me??

I was spacing out thinking about what hyorin told me I didn't even notice that I'm home already

and my eyes couldn't believe what I'm seeing right now

Jiyong

he's sitting in front of my door

I was ready to yell at him to get out but before I got the chance to do that

he looked at me intensely

he looks horrible

the dark circles and some scratches on his face

and his nose is so Red!  what's going on

"you just couldn't stop being like you can you?!"

he said while trying to get up and walk closer to me

"what?!  are you drunk??!"

the smell of alcohol to him is so strong

"yes! what are going to about it?! act cute and adorable!?"

"what the hell are you even talking about?! leave! or just be drunk somewhere else!!"

"why can't you do that when someone is hurting you in school!"

Does he mean the bullying?

"oh now you're concern! its your fault so don't act as if you're so innocent."

his eyes become softer

"Then why wont you fight back and tell them that its my fault?"

he asked in a low voice

"what's the point they treat you like a king, they bow down to you." 

"at least show to them that this side of you... fierce"

"as much I want to Ji, there's really no point...they're right about everything, for minute there I felt like for the first the time I'm falling in love and I almost believe that fairy tale do happen.

But in just a second you kick reality straight to my face , So don't tell  me what to do or what to feel right now cuz you did more than enough already ji" I wasn't able to resist it already and let the tears just flow ,

I walk past him,  but he grab my arm and hug from the back

"It kills me to see you like this sandy, if only this was a different time maybe I have the courage to stand up for what I truly feel for you, If only...."

I didn't say anything, I just let him....his hugs are the warmest

we hugged each other longer than we should be.

"sandy?"

"hmm?"

"can we start over?"

can we? 

"I thought this was a goodbye?"

"I might die if let go sandy"

"I don't know ji..."

"I can't promise you the best relationship with me...but, if ever I failed you this time the only thing that I can ensure you is that in a different time, I'll make sure that you would wear a wedding dress on my wedding."

I laugh at what he said

"don't laugh or i'll kiss you"

I thought it was another joke so I laugh again, he grab my waist and move his face closer to mine I just close my eyes and let things happen. But I didn't feel anything so I open my eyes, he's still close to me looking at me sincerely.

"I'm gonna do it properly this time sandy"

He went closer but instead of aiming for my lips he kissed my forehead 

I felt every inch of sincerity.

please accept me again sandy.