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MY STORY

HI, MY LOVELY FEMALE HUMANS! SO NICE TO FINALLY CATCH UP WITH YOU LOVELY LADIES, FINALLY BEING DONE WITH ALEVELS, I CAN FULLY CONCENTRATE ON MY BOOKS. SO LOOKOUT FOR REGULAR UPDATES ; )

LIKE I MENTIONED PREVIOUSLY THIS BOOK WILL HAVE ONLY 100 CHAPTERS AND TODAYS UPDATE COUNTS FOR THE 50TH CHAPTER, SO TODAY I WILL BE PUBLISHING MY STORY

LATELY I'VE RECIVED ALOT DM'S FROM MANY OF MY FELLOW SISTERS APPRECIATING MY WORK AND IM VERY GREATFUL FOR ALL YOUR APPRECIATION APART FROM THE APPRECIATION MANY OF YOU REQUESTED FOR HOW I DELT WITH THE CRITISM AND ALL SO I THOUGHT I JUST OUTLINE MY STORY! HOPE YOU ENJOY MY LOVELY LOVELY SWEETHEARTS ~~~~~~~

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Starting off i was always a fat kid, slightly overweight than the rest and as i grew up so did my weight, i actually didnt care about my weight up until i moved to maldives.

since i recived a double promotion i was put in grade 5 instead of grade 3, so i was basically put with a group of teenagers where i was barely a tween, not to mention all of them were extremely thin

so by now, two months into school things started to get a bit out of hands, my classmates would make really offensive jokes most of time the native language which at that time i didnt speak

and i then it just kept getting worse and worse to a point where my classmates said stuff at my face just like that which made me extremely insecure of myself and honestly to this day i find it very disturbing becuase at the age i was not supposed to care about how i looked and have endless fun but i was doing the complete opposite i was constantly worried how i look and was very insecure

as days passsed it kept getting worse and worse all my confidence was crushed to dust, i was a student who actively participated in all kind of activites on and off stage but as things got worse i refused to show my face in any place or activities. i was part of the interschool netball, i was the goal keeper and all this undue critism on my weight and how it was unlikely for a fat kid to play so well this made me loose concertration on most games and even bailout on some and eventually i dropped out of the team saying i was unable to participate any more.

things just kept getting was worse on and on, by this time anxiety and depression started to kick in and matters was worse than ever i started to wear huge oversized clothes just with a blind wish that for once people would not notice that i was fat and as everyone did i associated fat with ugly, i felt like i was hideous and i felt ashamed of myself by this time grade 5 came to an end and we had to fly back to srilanka for the holidays, i was a bit relived that i would not have to encounter my school and classmates but little did i know i had worse in store for me.

being back home i had a new problem in my hands "relatives"

now i know people say they only advise you on your weight becuase they care but honestly there is a time and place to advise someone, becuase everytime they saw me they would go "oh, you have put on so much weight" "you looked prettier when you were thin" " you look older than your age becuase you fat" and blah blah blah...

and i believed everything they said, by now i had come to a conclusion i was the most ugliest person to walk the earth . long story short i just hated myself.

this followed up for over three years, when i realised what i had been doing wrong all so long, i didnt have an opinion over myself so i just used those opinions of the others and concluded that i was ugly, it was at an event held at school to celeberate autism day and those especially with down syndrome that changed me. i was forced by the school to participate in the debate and opening speech and many other on stage activities

i was trembling and so scared of all the critism i will attract after this event and the event commenced i began with the opening speech, i was shaking and sweating like a pig

after the speech, i joined the others in the dias and thats what changed everything, the kids there they were so different both pysically and mentally yet when they performed or had fun not once did they think about what others thaught about them, they were themselves and they were so pure and precious and so very beautiful in thier own way

thats what made me realise i am too beautiful in my own way, everyone is. fat or thin tall or short dark or fair it doesnt matter becuase you are you, the most beautiful human ever and not everyone will appreciate you but sure enough there is a million people to degrade you all the time on your looks your personality and everything so, i brushed all of them out and here i am happy as ever. i still have anxiety and depression but i never let it get the best of me, i wear what i want, i walk they way i want, i participate in everything drama, debate, sports , commonwealth programmes

I AM ME, I AM AWESOME AND NO ONE CAN EVER SAY OTHERWISE!

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keep smiling my lovelies! i will always be there to hear you out! im just a message away so go ahead dm me :]

-suhayy