Chasing the Addiction

Take Me On A Ride

"They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin

And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win."

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The intensity of my situation took my breath away

Leaving. Tonight. The only place I'd ever called home

Where I'd grown up and discovered myself in

Most importantly my room, where so many memories were held

I spent countless hours gossiping here on the floor with my friends, eating popcorn and giggling all night about silly things

I'd had my first period in here, cried over my first break up and laughed the hardest when Cassie fell over my trash can

All these memories suddenly started to overwhelm me, all the risks I would be taking

But with the risks came the gain

On the bright side I'd spend my time with Andrew, alone

I'd be able to do whatever I wanted without having to worry about curfew or trying not to look high in front of my parents

My conscious warned me to be careful with my newly discovered freedom, but it was ignored as usual

Packing was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life

It was taking the things I needed most and tearing myself away from my old life

And it was almost too much to bear

I'd miss this bed, these sheets, my posters, everything

After awhile I quit wallowing and bundled it up inside

Unhealthy, I know

But pushing these thoughts in the deepest corner of my mind seemed like the safest way to go

Or else I might go insane

I called Andrew, told him to pick me up now

Right now

He mumbled a sleepy okay and hung up

I was done packing around the time he pulled up in front of my house

Now the real hard part, getting past the 'ol parentals

I called him and instructed him to stand underneath my window

Praying none of my neighbors were watching, I began throwing my valuables down below;

Making sure he caught each every item safely before tossing down another

I'd packed most of my newer clothes and jewelry, toiletries, makeup, some other unimportant things

And lastly my teddy bear Carl

At least I was taking part of the old me along for the ride

Truth be told I actually can't sleep without him

With one last sad glance I left, slowly closing the door behind me

On my bed rested a note

A very important one

I slid down the stairs as quietly as possible

It was hours later and my parents were done fighting

The results were evident as I walked into the living room and saw my dad sleeping on the couch

There goes that marriage, straight down the drain

Thankfully I wouldn't be here to watch it crumble apart piece by piece

Outside, I was instantly captured with strong arms

Andrew encircled me lightly as I breathed in his familiar scent

He grabbed my hand and led me to our parked cars

It only took a few minutes to evenly distribute my things

Driving separately, I smiled to myself as I watched my house fade into the distance

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Living with a guy sure was different than what I'd imagined

For one, he always left the toilet seat up, how annoying was that? Very

And when we got into little disputes, there wasn't anywhere to go

I couldn't storm out and go home in anger, I had to stay there and wait for him to eventually apologize

The great thing was we barely ever fought

Our relationship was at an all time high, and so were we; constantly

Throughout those days all I can remember was being constantly stoned and having lots of sex

Especially that last part

There were days I missed my parents and my life

But he didn't want to hear about it and I certainly didn't want to talk about it

I saw my face all over the news and media

My friends consistantly texted me and asked me if I was okay

I told them yes but I just needed some time to myself

It was too much drama for me to handle, so I ignored it all and focused on other things instead

Every once in awhile Andrew would pull out a different kind of pipe

And we would smoke something a little stronger than weed

And it would take me to places I never even knew existed

But that was only sometimes

Without warning, those days became more and more frequent

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