Love will find its way

Jenshad - Last day Shoot part 1

All the following events and thoughts are pure fiction and it is not my intention to offend anyone, especially Jennifer and Harshad.

Surreal

Looking the mirror that's how she would describe the past few weeks. Every morning she would get up and go with a smile to work but today is different. Today would be the last time, that she would get the opportunity to be Zoya Siddiqui on-screen.

Like for every character she had put in her maximum effort to play, or to be more precisely to live this character. In some way or another she had resonated deeply with Zoya and her suffering. She could understand how broken it can make you if a person you trust the most cheats on you and leaves you behind and how much struggle one needs to overcome in order to face life again.

What pains her the most is that her Zoya didn't get the closure she deserved or even the journey she deserved. Not only Zoya but also Aditya and all the other character of Bepannaah. Before the real story could even start they had to shut down the whole show. In a way she was angry but mostly she was disappointed. She knew it was irrational but somehow she also felt like she has failed and was responsible. She was well aware that there was nothing she could have done but still, these thoughts were lurking in the back of her mind.

There was a knock on her door and stopped her spinning thoughts. J: "Come in"

The door opened and Harshad entered and dressed in a pink suit it looked like he was also ready for the shoot.

H: "How are you doing?"

She sighes and said: "I...I..don't know... I haven't really processed it... I can't believe today is our last day...and you?"

H: "Same..."

There was a silence but it wasn't an uncomfortable one but rather both of them were lost in their own thoughts. During this short time Jenny got the chance to look at him properly. He looked visibly tired and the dimple she got used to were nowhere to be found. She knew no one was happy about how the past weeks had been progressing but somehow she missed how much it was affecting Harshad. In the past few days she had been crying constantly, and he was the one who cheered her up and made her laugh during the shoot. Now that she was really looking at him, she felt terrible for no noticing before and feels like the worst friend ever.

She took his gently and looked him in the eye. "Hey, we can do this. At least we are in this together. And..."

He eyes looked straight into her eyes and for a short moment she was lost in his eyes. It wasn't long but when she was able to break away from his gaze, he was still looking at her expectantly. It was embarrassing but in this short moment she managed to completely forget what she wanted to tell him. Her mind was empty. She stutters and blurts out: "And... Ah...There is no better way to make an exit than in a pink suit." She starts laughing to cover up her mistake and Harshad looked at her with obvious confusion written on his face but slowly a smile started to emerge from his face.

Before he can say anything they are called for the shoot.

The whole day passed in a blur. There were so many fans who came by and thanked them in person. Every time it made here so emotionally, but she was trying to smile for the sake of her fans. She knew how heartbroken they were and she even got to know about the crazy trending and everything they did for her.. for them. So the least she can do is smile and pretend like everything will be fine.

Every time when she was feeling like her mask was slipping away Harshad was by her side and helped her through it with small gesture like holding here hand with reassurance or making some silly jokes. She honestly didn't know how she would have a coped with the whole situation, if she hadn't had him. She had amazing friends, yes, but one of here close friends Aniruddha was suffering himself and he needs his Wife Nihal, more than her as Naihal's best friend. All of her other friends can't possibly understand what she is going through even though they try.

Maybe Sehban could understand because he had been also a part of this show for a short time but even he was busy with his new show, so she didn't want to bother him too. Furthermore, in all honesty she liked talking to Harshad and spending time with him.

She was back in here make-up room and removing all traces of Zoya and return to Jenny. There was a farewell party planned after the live session with the fans but she wasn't really in the mood in putting on a fancy dress or any make-up.

All the additional crying for the shoot she had to do today turned out to be blessing. With each drop of her tear her pain subsided a bit. She was not even close to be fine, but she was on the way.

She took a deep breath and went to the others, who were already seated and ready for the live chat.

Looking around she couldn't help but be grateful about her extended family. Everyone in that room was family for her and in memories from the last year are one of her fondest. Thinking of fond... here gaze fell on him. All the positivity where gone in a moment and a sinking feeling starts to arise. Is today the last day that she will be seeing him?