Whose Fault? (Editing)

Chapter Six

Fuck...dead probably, I thought to myself, but gave my lie answer that I've had prepared for the longest time. "I don't know. I love both theatrical and live show, like concerts and stuff like that, so maybe working around here, in one of the theme parks or at a venue or something. Getting my start."

"That's sick! Seems like you have a drive to achieve your goal and you know whereabouts you want it to take you in life. That's nice to see."

I smiled in response, thanking him, "what instruments can you play?"

He started telling me about how he had piano lessons when he was younger that started him off and once he had mastered it, he taught himself how to play the guitar and a few other string instruments. Now he was working on the drums. He said he was really intrigued by the idea of being able to play along with the songs he enjoyed listening to now.

As he spoke, his eyes lit up and he was speaking with such enthusiasm. I loved that. I loved being around when people were talking about something that they were truly passionate about; I always thought that it was the one time that a person was genuinely their true self, without question.

"You'll have to play for me sometime, if you're up for it," I told him. If he's that passionate just speaking about playing music, I would love to see the kind of magic that happened when he actually was playing.

We talked a lot more throughout the rest of the night while watching Hercules. Every once in a while the conversation would slow down, or I would get excited about a song that was playing in the movie. I would quietly sing along to myself and watch the scene before starting up the conversation again.

Somehow Eli knew just how to make me laugh. It was nice to not have to force it; to have it be genuine.

By the time the night was over, my sides were in stitches and my whole face hurt from smiling and laughing so much. I didn't know how Eli could be so great to me even after seeing a tiny glimpse of the crazy crap I went through and the burden I was to the people around me. He'll probably use it against me at some point.

The drive back to my house was quiet, there was music playing in the background and both of us seemed to be lost in thought. When Elli parked in front of my house, he looked at me and smiled as he joked, "don't get out of the car this time." He unbuckled himself, rushed over to my side, and opened the door for me. I quietly mumbled a thank you and made my way to the door.

After unlocking the door, I turned around knowing Eli had followed me, "thank you for tonight. I had an amazing time."

I didn't think I could ever tire from seeing a smile on his face, "no need to thank me. I had fun too. Do you think you'd maybe want to go out again sometime?"

"Yeah, I'd like that."

"Cool." He paused for a moment, then pulled me in for a tight hug. I could count the number of times I'd hugged Eli on one hand, but I already knew that I enjoyed it. Hugging him just felt like the most comforting thing in the world. "Good night Birdie."

He started to pull away and before I could think twice about it, I placed a quick kiss on his cheek, "good night Eli." I said, before turning to head inside. I caught a glimpse of him just before he turned around to head to his car. For a moment I was ecstatic that I was the reason for the smile on his face.

I made my way upstairs to settle down for the night. I changed into pajamas and laid in bed scrolling through my different social media pages. For a while everything was fine, but eventually I was lost in a negative headspace once again. I tried putting my phone down and going to sleep, but my mind wouldn't let me. I'm such an idiot. Have I not learned my lesson? This is not going to turn out well at all. I can't possibly let this go on.

Oh my god. What am I doing?

Since sleeping obviously wasn't a thing I was able to do at that moment, I got out of bed and sat down on the couch in the living room. I turned on the TV to Netflix and looked for a show to watch that could potentially get my mind off everything. I clicked on a show called Fawlty Towers. I had watched a few episodes with Chloe and I liked it and thought it was funny.

After watching a couple episodes, I gave up because it wasn't working. My mind was tormenting me for how stupid I was by letting Eli into my life, even in the slightest bit. One thought that ran through my head over and over again was what the hell is wrong with me?

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