I'm here again, not sure as to why this gained so much reading compared to my others, maybe the confused thoughts of a teenager are interesting to people? I don't write much anymore, too busy reading what others have written. College is all that occupies my mind at the moment. That and the few people I've chosen to keep in my life. I think I've come to a point in which I am stable enough to make small changes, not just big ones. To fix my life one tiny grain of sand at a time. I'm tired all the time, and depression gets to me every now and then. I've stopped cutting (a month clean and counting), and Red Bull isn't all I drink anymore. I suppose Id stopped typing here at the point in my life when things were a void. Didn't feel the need to. Now I'd just like to type because I can. I've started playing guitar more, I have the mental energy to now. Only because I skip my homework 60% of the time but whatever. I don't do art much anymore, can't keep myself focused enough. Swim is the 2nd bane in my life, after school. Being a STEM major is hard, but doing that on top of swim and regular high school is all the more difficult. I think id like to figure out my life right now but I'm afraid I just can't. It'll be fine I suppose, but academics has never occupied so much of my thoughts. Maybe I'll write something angsty later but for now I'm just summarizing my life.
