I don't want to hate her. But I'm starting to. He talks about her with such affection in his voice. I thought he stopped having feelings for her months ago. I thought maybe I was good enough to make him forget about her.
His friends tease him about her.
Why.
They all know he's with me. So why would there be a reason to tease him about her?
Teasing him about his crush.
The one he loved for forever.
Who he would do anything for.
Sure he said he'd do anything for me,
But I have the sneaking feeling that she comes first.
They have been friends for so long. He's loved her for so long. How could I even compare to that? She didn't love him like that. She never wanted what he wanted to be with her.
He still loves her.
And I'm still not enough to make him forget. It's almost been 6 months we have been together. And he still hasn't gotten over her.
I'm never enough. Not for him. He says I am. He says he's just being dumb. But how can I blame him for his feelings? That is how he feels and that's not his fault. It was my fault for thinking I'd even overshadow the amazing heather. I don't want to hate her.
But I hate her because the way he talks about what she used to be to him,
Makes me hate someone else.
Me.
