so I was singing random stuff yesterday, singing what I was thinking. And I came to a realization. It wasn't him that was making me feel like I wasn't good enough.
It was me.
He compliments me and makes me feel special. I always used to be the one who had to do that. I used to be the only one who would tell myself I was great and that I'm special.
Well, since I've been with him, people have stopped telling me I'm worthless. People have stopped telling me I'm ugly.
All I've been getting is positivity from him.
So I created negativity towards myself. It wasn't that he tore down my self confidence. It was that I did. I no longer have anyone to tell me I'm not amazing, so I've been telling myself I'm worthless just because I'm so used to it.
I feel so bad that I've been trying to blame it on him.
But long distance is hard,
Even if you get to see them once in a while.
It's still difficult.
