I know its been a long time...but it hasnt been okay,somethimes yes, but othertimes..i cuttted..my mind went black,yeah.. not blank ..but black...full of selfhate
im totally not crying while writing this..lately i have the feeling too cry alot, i met a really nice guy, his names Alec, he lives in the same country..but he lives kinda far..im extremely excited cuz i might meet him 2 morrow...but like always im being a fuck up..so maybe i wont....but..thats okay..i guess...its my own fault..i shouldnt be such a messed up shit
i dont know what too do anymore..with life i should probably die..but im too scared too do it..im sorry ..i know alot of people want me dead..but i just cant
i was in extreme little space, my mind saw how depressed i was and put me into it i guess..but it did nothing because he wasnt there..he wasnt there for me...
i almost burned myself a couple of times
completely consent of what i was doing,yet it wasnt on purpose
im going im not really okay... but ill be fine
bye my beautiful readers <3
i love you guys <3
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my diary
RandomWarning,this may containt triggering stuff,idk I just write how i feel,dont take this personally Its my way to get it out without bothering someone..somethimes idk who to talk to..so i come here..
